Masalah manusia #27 - GUNA AKAL

Kalau kau kena marah dengan makcik Deutsche sebab basahkan tandas awam, tu bukan racism nama dia... tu padan muka.

#nocommonsense  #nibukandeep #nilogik #kaulahfitnahagamatu

Masalah manusia #26 - LAZY N STUBBORN

We live in the time where, all that are 'logic' are defined as 'deep', all that are 'common sense' are defined as 'kind'.

The malfunction of the brains of the society. Too lazy to think. I can't even say you are dummer than the animals. It's an insult to the animals. (ni pun mesti kau nak kata deep gak kan)

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Malas untuk berfikir, degil untuk berubah

Jaya #4 - BLESSING IN DISGUISE

'Now days I walk over things I used to trip over.'

LEBAT

'Lernen ist Erfahrung. Alles andere ist einfach nur Informationen.'

'Learning is experience. The rest is just information.'

(Albert Einstein)

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Ramai sangat manusia bangga dengan informasi-informasi yang mereka ada. Miskin.

DM #18 - IMMATURE

Went through all your past crushes from tadika till the last couple of years and can't help but to laugh at yourself, 'sampah mana la kau kutip all these while...'

If He were to answers all your prayers, you'd probably be dead from bunuh diri sukarela terjun gaung right now.

Nasib tak maqbul, fuuhh!

Masalah manusia #25 - ABNORMAL

My dear future kids,

Mommy has some problems here. Eye sore. Men with buns are like women with side shaved. I dont get 'em.

At all.

Men do their eyebrows here. Women tattooed theirs.

Why???

Can't imagine how they'd behave in your time, honey... I'm already so sorry for you, sweetheart.

Love,
Mommy

Ameen #21 - ALLADIN

When I was a kid, the whole family would pray maghrib together.
We would all stand in line in front of the sajadah. And everytime when we have to make our sujood and tahayyatul akhr, I would make sure my whole body especially my feet would not leave the sajadah area...

I'm afraid that if the sajadah were to transform into flying carpet, I would fall down then, not able to join my family for an adventure.

We were to take-off to visit the Pluto, the Uranus, the Sun, the Mars, the...

'Assalamualaikum warahmatullah...'

Oh, man... back to earth...

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Maghrib prayer | the sunset prayer
Sajadah | praying mat
Sujood | prostration
Tahayyatul Akhr | the final stage, sitting on your feet reciting the last prayer before the final Salam (the greeting of peace... Assalamualaikum warahmatullah) to end the prayer.

Layar #13 - The Walk

"Most variable Walkers they die when they arrive. They think they have arrived, but they're still on the wire. If you have three steps to do, and you take those steps arrogantly, if you think you are invincible, you're going to die."

(Papa Rudy)

JUST SAYIN'

"The Buddhists say if you meet somebody and your heart pounds, your hands shake, your knees go weak, that's not the one. When you meet your 'soul mate' you'll feel calm. No anxiety, no agitation."

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No gedikness if I may add...

LL #1 - OTAK

Amazing is brain, a storage mechanism, a recorder, a theater stage.

It could always be recorded, paused, played and rewind. Seldom stopped.

Sometimes by your commands, most of the times by itself.

So, beware... of what you feed your brain.

Thoughts #30 - LIBERATION

When I was a kid, I envy the adults... of how free they are in making their own choices, having the full autonomy of their lives. I often felt trapped in my parents' prison...

And now I am a full grown women, having my own apartment, my own lines of clothes and list of chores. And I feel trapped in my own prison...

WISH #6 - GIFT OF LIFE

to be a volunteer in a hospital, helping out the patients, preferably those who suffer from leukimia and cancers, those who suffer from anything related to spine and brain

Layar #12 - The Secret Life of Mitty Walter

On the Himilayan Mountains, hours of waiting to take a good shot of the snow leopard...

Sean O'Connell: They call the snow leopard the ghost cat. Never lets itself be seen.

Walter Mitty: Ghost cat.

Sean: Beautiful things don't ask for attention.

(silent moment...)

Walter: When are you going to take it?

Sean: Sometimes I don't. If I like a moment, for me, personally, I don't like to have the distraction of the camera. I just want to stay in it.

Walter: Stay in it?

Sean: Yeah. Right there. Right here.

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.

.

Strucked right at the heart as the lines were spoken. Two things came to mind:

'Do you consider yourself beautiful? If so, why the spotlights you made on yourself ? '

'Not every thing you cherrish, let alone appreciate and love should be put on camera... much more absurd to be shared on social media.'

then it immediately came to mind of the quotes of Albert Einstein:

'I know not with what weapons World War III will be fought, but World War IV will be fought with sticks and stones.'

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The thing is, as we develope, we tend to forget our past and forget to learn the very essence of it. Too blurred by the mainstream mentality, too caught up with all the attention received.

One day, you will come to realise of how much the heart is contaimenated, of how much it needed to be de-toxed. 

Then, you realise the need to go back to sticks and stones, and learn how to appreciate things like the way it was before.

Yes.

Way way back.

When Abraham had none, but Him to guide, of what to worship, from whom to be loved...

(6:75-79)

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Beautiful things don't ask for attention.

They ask for forgiveness, for the beauty borrowed and bestowed upon.

WISH #5 - ABU HURAIRAH

to work as a volunteer in any of the animals sanctuary anywhere around the world for at least a month and share with those cuties the stories of Miho, Mel, Elmo, and all

to register oneself as seasonal volunteer and keep in track with the programmes of the animal sanctuary

Jaya #3 - RESOLUTION

may the odds be with us ! this is for you, 25 :) the last 1/4 of a decade

WISH #5 - AURORA BEAURALIS

to convince the other one to make a full trip to Björkliden Fjällby, Sweden (or any other suitable venue), meet, greet and exchange hugs with the ever so warm-hearted Huskyies and witness the mesmerized view and dancing stripes of the Aurora painted on that pitch black sky

WISH #4 - IMPOSSIBLE ?

to let us get that 68 back home!

... no, seriously... get it back...

WISH #3 - FINDING NEMO

to dive deep into the ocean, and to pray down there together with the wonderful sea creatures translating your grattitude in the form of prostration

WISH #2 - SOUND

to attend The Lord of The Rings Symphony and to invite the other one for it and wonder how many languages are there in the galaxy

WISH #1 - HIMAWARI

to serve and cherrish the children with Down Syndromme for at least a week anywhere around the world

Layar #11 - DER HOBBIT - SMAUGS EINÖDE

"[...],die Leute glauben, was sie glauben wollen [...]"

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zu viele Wahrheiten in einem Film...

Vienna #36 - HOIT DI GOSCHN

"Austrians are 1) very polite, 2) they don't mean it.

On one side they say 'Gruß Gott, wie geht es Ihnen?', but in their mind they say, 'Oida hoit di goschn du bleda wappla!' "

True, except for the Viennese, it's the very opposite of that statement. Viennese are 1) very rude, 2) they mean it.

Vielen Dank.

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Glossary :

→
Oida hoit di goschn du bleda wappla! (austrian dialect)
Alter, halt die Klappe du blöder Trottle! (standart german)
Man, shut that howling screamer (the mouth), you skunk! (english translation)

→
Gruß Gott, wie geht es Ihnen?
Hello, how are you?

SURVIVAL

"Den Satz, den ich in einer Sprache anfange, spreche ich in der selben Sprache zu Ende."

(Christoph Waltz)

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Auch wenn der Aussage im Prinzip so schön und logisch klingt, sogar den Mut zeigt, ist es in der Wirklichkeit fast unmöglich für die östliche Welt, näher betrachten, für einen Malaysianer ihn zu realisieren.

Die Kolonialisierung ließ mehr als nur Soldaten, Ruine und Waffen hinter. Der Schuld ist selbst verständlich nicht 100%ig auf sie zu übertragen. Aber das zu sagen, dass die Malaysianern selbst wegen der unglaublich eingemischten Umgangssprache kein Prinzip haben, ist absurd.

Egal wie schön die Standardsprache einer Nation ist, zeigt es nur die 1% hochschichtige Einheit des Gedankens jener Nation. Die Restliche zeigt die Umgangsprache deutlich, nicht nur wie  die Mentalität jener Nation ist, sondern auch wie sie in der Realität, bzw wie sie in der Vergangenheit, Gegenwart, und die Zukunft, mit der Umgebung beging, um zu überleben.

WWK #15 - LIVING THE PRESENT

'I hate it... just can't get control of myself. I can't stop my brain from thinking too far ahead.'

'I know... I understand you totally...'

'I mean come on, the only thing I should be worrying about right now is to get this degree done. Why all the fuss about the future and not getting the current work done? And I can't make it stop.'

'But don't you think, it's because we don't want to live the present?'

'Oh my God...'

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As much as needed to set for the big goal, you need to set the small goals to be able to live the present.

As much as you hate it, it's a gift.

CONTROL TEMPER

"Just because your pain is understandable, doesn't mean your behaviour is acceptable."

(Dr. Steve Maraboli)

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Careful there...

WKK #14 - SCHWESTER

I'm always her Hudochka :)

Circle #24 - HE, THE GREATEST

Saheera:

'Korang buka la link ni, it helps me a lot if rasa down nak solat. 'MuslimMatters: Beautiful Salah'


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He awakes in the middle of the night with a purpose. Slowly, he gets out of bed and quietly slips off to the bathroom so not to awaken the others. Inside he feels refreshed as the cool water splashes on his face, arms and feet. Revived, he heads out with a purpose to his prayer room.

He has had a very difficult day with a lot of questions echoing in his head, but he did not complain to anybody, as he knows there is only One who can assist him. The One who ordered him to seek assistance through prayer and patience, so here he is, seeking assistance through prayer, while many others sleep.

He raises his hands above his shoulders and proclaims the greatness of his Creator “Allāhu Akbar!”, then folds them on his chest. Quietly, he seeks protection from the accursed Satan, and begins in the name of his Lord. He recites The Opening Chapter in beautiful rhythmic tones. He takes his time, knowing that after every verse, his Lord replies. “All praise is for Allāh, the Lord of the Worlds,” he begins. He can feel the response within him, “My slave has praised me!”

“Most Gracious, Most Merciful,” he continues. “My slave has glorified me!” is the response. “Master of the Day of Judgment,” he affirms. “My slave has related all matters to me,” Allāh responds. “You alone we worship and You alone we ask for help,” he attests. Allāh's reply fills his heart with hope and joy, “This is between me and my servant and my servant will have whatever he asks for!”

At this point, he breaks down into tears as he asks Allāh for the most important thing in his life, “Guide us to the straight path, the path of those who have earned your favor, not of those who have earned your anger or have gone astray!” He feels peace as he internalizes Allāh's response, “This is for my slave and my slave will have what he asked for.”

He then recites further and feels Allāh's guidance in every verse he recites. For whichever chapter of the Qurʾān he chooses to recite from, he is assured that he will find guidance as Allāh has testified, “this is the book in which there is no doubt, it is a guidance for those who are conscious of Allāh.” After completing his emotional recitation in which he pondered over Allāh's wise and reassuring words, he bows in rukū' and glorifies his Lord for His guidance and mercy.

He then stands up straight and praises Allāh as he prepares for his favorite part of the prayer: the sajdah! He proclaims the greatness of Allāh and goes straight down into prostration, indicating his full submission to his Creator. It is a position which signifies complete obedience and humility and it is the position in which a person is closest to their Lord.

He stays in sajdah for a long time with no intention of getting up soon. He glorifies his Lord, The Most High, multiple times then breaks down into tears and begins to ask for everything he needs. He stays like this for several minutes with only Allāh knowing what he is saying. He is praying; praying for everything he needs, praying for everyone he knows, praying for people he doesn't know, praying for people who might even hate or harm him. He prays and prays, in complete submission to his Lord.

He then sits up to take a short break and seeks forgiveness for any shortcomings in his prayer, then goes back into prostration to glorify His Lord more and ask Him again for His endless bounties. After a few minutes, he stands up and repeats the entire cycle again.

Several minutes later, the humble slave returns to his bed at peace with his Lord, and at peace with creation. He recites his du'a before sleeping and closes his eyes for a short nap, ready to tackle the challenges of life in the morning with full faith in his Lord.

This is ṣalāh, true ṣalāh. Ṣalāh based upon understanding, concentration, sincerity and submission. It was never meant to be a ritual, but rather a means of communication with our Creator and spiritual revival. May Allāh grant us all the ability, guidance and commitment to pray like this every day in all our prayers.

Circle #23 - HIKMAH

Deejah:

Ustad Pahrol Juoi kata: 'Biar tak sentap, asal menyerap.'


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Kadang kita asyik sangat nak sentap-menyentap, sarkastik sana sini dalam menyampaikan ayat Allah, sedangkan Islam tu sendiri indah. Lain orang, lain penerimaan. Lain orang, lain cara. Moga semua lillahi ta'ala

MOMENTUM

"In almost every culture there has existed a more or less ubiquitous concept of beauty, a unifying spirit shining forth in objects of daily use in our contemporary culture, however, the fractured quality of so-called aesthetic concepts has resulted in an unparalleled absence of beauty from our man-made environments. When working with lightweight structures it is fascinating to observe how their inherent beauty seems to rather spontaneously 'appear' - usually after a laborious process of definition and optimization, not by a predetermined design. The pure mathematical beauty in minimal surfaces is also the beauty in nature where all structures are optimized."

(Philosophy of SL-RASCH Special and Lightweight Structures)

sl-rasch.de

Islamische Zeitung: Ihr Rat an junge Architekten?

Mahmud Bodo Rasch: Im Studium an den Hochschulen kann man nicht lernen, was man wissen muss, um ein Architekt im Sinne des Wortes zu sein. Darum sollten junge Absolventen hinaus gehen in andere Welten, andere Kulturen und den engen Blickwinkel abschaffen, der ihnen hier als Maß alle Dinge mit auf den Weg gegeben wird. Auch zum Verständnis der eigenen Kultur ist es notwendig, andere Kulturen zu kennen. Man kann doch das Phänomen Baum erst dann erkennen, wenn man verschiedene Bäume kennt. Außerdem gibt es in anderen Weltgegenden viel Arbeit und sichet auch viele dankbare Arbeitgeber.

Islamische Zeitung: Ihr Rat an die Muslime Europas?

Mahmud Bodo Rasch: Alles muss von innen kommen. Wenn man von innen heraus arbeitet und man dabei aufrichtig Gottes Gefallen sucht, kommt sicher das Richtige dabei heraus. Wenn das nicht geht - z.B. im Zusammenhang mit dem Broterwerb in einer nicht-islamischen Umwelt, soll man doch alle verfügbare Kraft auf die Verbesserung des eigenen Innenmenschen lenken - das ist der Große Heilige Krieg. Dabei ist das Gebet von größter Wichtigkeit. Nur wenn die Arbeit eine Verlängerung des Gebets ist, kann das erwartet werden. Da sind wir wieder bei der Moschee, eine schöne Moschee hilft dabei, denn Schönheit unterstützt das Gottesgendenken. Dazu gehört auch die Sauberkeit.

WWJ #1 - Teaser of Jannah

'Lustig... Wir haben uns verlaufen, ich hab' den falschen Weg genommen und jetzt sind wir hier gelandet, wo es viel schöner ist als wo wir hin wollen.'

'Subhanallah.'

'Siehst du die Stadt da unten.'

'Ja.'

'Da liegt unsere Probleme.'

'Gel... so grauslich.'

'Und so klein sogar.'

'Zu klein.'

'Und wir haben das selber groß gemacht.'

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Nähe Cobenzl. Ich wollte die Stadt nicht fotografieren, sie sehe ich jeden Tag sobald ich die Augen aufmache, auch eine der Gründe, warum ich die Augen wieder zumache. Also, lieber Bäume, Himmel, Sonnenuntergang und der Wind von oben an der Spitze genoßen :-)

Alhamdulillah. Thumma alhamdulillah.

KOMPROMISS ?

"Our culture has accepted two huge lies. The first is that if you disagree with someone's lifestyle, you must fear or hate them. The second is that to love someone means you agree with everything they believe, say or do. Both are nonsense. You don't have to compromise convictions to be compassionate."

(Dave Chappelle)

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Du musst es genau verstehen, warum du es liebst und warum du es hasst.

Das 'Verurteilen' kann erst später kommen...

noch später...

na ja

komm einfach bitte nie

Ameen #20 - UMMI DAN TEH

Dalam banyak-banyak teh, teh apa paling sedap lagi nikmat?

Teh yang dibuat oleh ummi untuk dirinya sendiri apabila beliau selesai kerja-kerja rumah, dihirup sedikit kemudian diletakkan di atas meja lalu dihabiskan oleh anak-anaknya tanpa pengetahuan beliau. Mai hirupan kedua, teh sudah habis.

Kalau aku jadi ummi, lama dah anak-anaknya merempat di bawah jambatan depan kedai mamak itu.

Circle #22 - COMFORT ZONE

Syera:

"Hijrah kita bukan hijrah dr Malaysia kemudian datang Germany pastu dapat biasiswa. Kalau macam tu senangnya nak berhijrah. Hijrah kita adalah apabila kita keluar daripada comfort zone kita.

Daripada tak biasa baca ma'thurat, push diri untuk start baca. Daripada pulun the whole day tengok movie, satu jam seminggu sahaja

Hijrah tu, kita kena tinggalkan dan terus learn new thing untuk isi kekosongan tu.

2:218 beriman > berhijrah > berjihad = mereka yg mengharap rahmat Allah"

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Kenapa aku tak pernah terfikir this level of comfort zone...

ya Rabb, what am I doing here?

Vienna #35 - ERSTICKT

Ya Rabb...
Where to go?
Whom to see?
What to ask?
When to settle?
Why to feel?

WWK #13 - QIAM

"The shortest distance between a problem and its solution is the distance between your knees and the floor."

(Anon)

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That day she collapsed, that very same day I taught her how to tahajjud. She did woke up that morning at 3am as I was deep asleep.

"I used the scarf and your praying mat."

When you are in deep trouble and not knowing where to escape, all the quarrel about religion doesn't matter to you anymore. Kau rembat apa saja yang hatimu turutkan.

Kadang tu tak faham kenapa manusia bergaduh membunuh, sedangkan sama-sama lemah di hadapanNya.

Circle #21- PERSEVERANCE

Diana:

"If you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together."

(Anon)

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:)

Circle #20 - ASAL BUAT

Kak Hanna:

"Kebatilan yang tersusun dapat mengalahkan kebenaran yang tidak tersusun."

(Ali bin Abi Talib R.A)

Kerja kita kena tersusun dan berstrategi, dalam dakwah lagi-lagi lah. Kena ada target. Bukan 'asal buat dakwah'.

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Funny how we can be so well-planned, at least pening-pening kepala critically thinking about our study and life, while at the same time tutup sebelah mata, asal boleh je buat dakwah.

Kalau setiap individu muslim rasa dakwah tu terlampau berat, dan mereka rasa merekalah orang yang terawang-awang itu, so who's gonna join the barisan macam surah As-Saff ?

Humility and humbleness is a necessity. But not to a point where it kills you and make you a part of buih-buih di lautan.

Vienna #34 - SILAT DENGAN DIRI

"My heart is at ease knowing that what was meant for me will never miss me, and that was misses me was never meant for me."

(Imam Ash-Shafie')

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That inner battle inside u being the greatest jihad of all. To have the full control of yourself.

Masalah manusia #24 - IPU 2900 di Palangka Raya

Di dalam siri filem Lord of The Rings: The Fellowship of The Ring, Boromir ada menggambarkan suasana Mordor dengan ayat berikut
"One does not simply walk into Mordor. Its Black Gate are guarded by more than just Ocrs. There is evil there that does not sleep, and the Great Eye is ever watchful. It is a barren wasteland, riddled with fire and ash and dust, the very air you breathe is a poison fume. Not with 10 000 men could you do this. It is folly"

Namun tanah kami nusantara sangat subur, mana mungkin barren wasteland. Di kelilingi rimba menghijau, mana mungkin Black Gate. Didiami khalifah, mana mungkin orcs. Udaranya di pagi hari bertemankan embun suci, mana mungkin poison fume.

Atau

Kita semua sudah bertukar ke itu.

HAU AB !

"Life begins at the end of your comfort zone."
(Neale Donald Walsch)

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Sometimes you thought by going out you loose everything, but it's the staying in really...

Consul General

"A consul is an official representative of the government of one state in the territory of another, normally acting to assist and protect the citizens of the consul's own country, and to facilitate trade and friendship between the peoples of the two countries. A consul is distinguished from an ambassador, the latter being a representative from one head of state to another. There can be only one ambassador from one country to another, representing the first country's head of state to that of the second, and his or her duties revolve around diplomatic relations between the two countries; however, there may be several consuls, one in each of several main cities, providing assistance with bureaucratic issues to both the citizens of the consul's own country travelling or living abroad and to the citizens of the country the consul resides in who wish to travel to or trade with the consul's country."

(Wikipedia)

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Duta boleh ada satu ja mewakili negara masing-masing. Konsulat boleh banyak, bekerja bersama-sama duta/mewakili duta di bandar-bandar besar lain.

Sebab tu Austria takda konsul, kecik nau negaranya. Haih... puas ku bertanya

EXCUSE

"Sampaikan dariku walau sepotong ayat."

(Muhammad Rasulullah)

"Andai kata seorang Muslim tidak memberi nasihat kepada saudaranya, kecuali setelah dirinya menjadi orang yang sempurna, nescaya tidak akan ada para pemberi nasihat."

(Hasan al-Banna)

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Alasan mana lagi kau nak bagi?

Why the hesitation to do good, but no single hesitation to do bad?

NO PAIN, NO GAIN

"Sesuatu keuntungan,
kebaikan,
kenikmatan,
kesempurnaan,

dan kesemuanya
tidak akan diperolehi kecuali
dengan merasakan kesulitan,

dan tidak akan bisa dicapai kecuali
dengan melalui jambatan keletihan."

(Ibn Qayyim)

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If success was so easy, gold medal would be of no value then, right?

Circle #19 - BUANG DAKI, GILAP DIRI

Punya peribadi yang disegani malah oleh musuhmu sendiri.

The character that would be respected even by your strongest enemy.

Apabila Abu Sufian yang ketika itu lantang menentang Islam, dikhabarkan perihal perkahwinan anak perempuannya dengan Rasululullah, beliau menjawab: I could not think of any better person to marry her other than Muhammad.

Circle #18 - GEHIRN NUTZEN

"Sami3na wa ato3na"

The hope for critical thinkers among the followers towards their upper ones...

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Menanya secara kritikal bukan makna membangkang atau tak percaya atau tak 'tsiqah'.

The very reason why quality ulama'-ulama' , cendikiawan-cendikiawan di barat jauh lebih tinggi berbanding di Malaysia. Their followers ask them, object them, present their own opinion on the subject. And both sides accept with open heart.

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Budaya kita sokmo mengangguk dan 'berlapang dada.'

Baik yang educated atau tidak, yang berkedudukan atau tidak.

Tolonglah ringan mulut bertanya with sincere heart. Tolonglah...

Layar #10 - 1 Litre of Tears

"Even though I have been hurt before by those heartless glances, this also helped me to understand that around me, there still exists some gentle glances.

Therefore I will definitely won't run away. That's what I'll do. Definitely, always."

(Kitou Aya)

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Spinocerebbula disease (fatal disease) is just incomparable to wearing scarf and being a foreign student.

Kecil ja ujian Allah bagi kat kau sebenarnya ni. Bersyukurlah :)

Dah re-run 20, 40 kali pun still nangis sebaldi... hadui lah

got problem with that?

"So what if this life isn't perfect? It's not Jannah."

(Nouman Ali Khan)

TAUBAH

Manchmal musst du dich verlieren, um wieder zu dir selbst zu finden.

Sometimes you have to lose yourself to discover who you are.

(Paulo Coelho)

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Cukuplah lama sangat sesat merayau tu, Huda. Baliklah... :)

Vienna #33 - PRAYER

Just before I could catch the bus 100m away from the front door,

'Hallo hallo! am Dienstag hab' ich Operation. Bete für mich, ja!'
(Hey hey! My operation is on tuesday. Pray for me!)

I turned back. Oh Frau Hausmeister (the housekeeper lady). Looked at the bus, ok ciao, Mr.Bus. Ran towards her.

'Ja, natürlich! Sicher bete ich für sie. Dienstag, ja.'
(Yes, of course! I pray for you. Tuesday, right.)

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Everybody, in some ways , any ways,  have hope in God.

#StartLookingViennaWithPositiveVibes

Thoughts #29 - DREAM TO DIVE

If I get to dive deep into the sea,
I'm afraid I might don't want to come back to the surface.

Circle #17 - TRAVEL

Saheera:

I see that stagnant water soon turns foul... If it flows, it becomes pure and if it is still, it does not.

Lions, without leaving their dwellings, would never hunt... An arrow, without leaving its bow, would never strike its target.

The sun, were it to remain still in the sky... would cause all people to become weary and tired.

Gold undiscovered in its place is just like dirt... and 'oud left in its place is just another type of wood.

(Imam Ash-Shafi'ee)

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Bless them, bless us all, ya Rahman ya Rahim

Thoughts #28

How is it that you can pee on time but not praying on time?

Shussh

"Not knowing when to shut up."
(Joseph/Joey Tribianni - F.R.I.E.N.D.S.)

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It's a skill though.

Circle #16 - BM : Baba Mama

Syera:

'So how's your new stage of life?'

'Kau tahu puzzle? We fit each others' lompong kosong perfectly. Alhamdulillah sgt.'

'Waaah alhamdulillah.'

'Haah. Masa mula-mula tu takut tak boleh cope dengan orang baru. Sebab kita tak tahu orang tu macam-mana kan. But now, it's clear, kami saling melengkapi.'

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Tabarakallah for both of you. My respect and prayers for both you my human-Elmo and your hubby. Allah balas trust kau pada Dia :)

Archi #33 - SÜMEYYE PASS REVIT

That moment, when you have 5 more days for holiday and you had to go to the Uni for Revit. Till 9pm.

#tolongkawanexam #bukanstudio #fuyyobukannoob3Dsoftwareke #Revit #ArchiLife

Vienna #32 - QORBAN

Korban desire untuk tak beli croissant n käsekrainer lepas habis solat raya. Sakit woo.. tapi lepas balik rumah, tepuk bahu sendiri. U did it, girl :)

Financial management is a great sacrifice on your comfort zone. Let's start from the smallest thing shall we.

Salam aidiladha 2015

A topsy-turvy world

'Every cool girl is half boy.'
(anonymous)

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This is no gender discrimination. Coz boys don't have drama frama...

unless he gay la.

Mak aih, ramainya gay ropenye.

Masalah manusia #23 - COUNTER-ANAROXIA

your eyes seeing a pavlova and your brain registering a red velvet.

your eyes seeing a 2675kg mirror reflection and your brain registering a 55kg real feel.

your long never ending riddle
finally answered!
of why pictures of the eyes
and of the camera,
don't stay the same.

kena tipu dengan otak sendiri hidup-hidup wei...

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guess you kinda get how anarox works in a way... only this time it's the other way round. Too bad camera didn't register that though xD

Masalah manusia #22 - SORRY :(

Finished reading articles of Syrian, Iraqi and Afghan refugees washed off the shores, and watching Slumdog Millionaire again and wonder which 24-years-old-just-2-years-architecture-student idiot complained about life just now.

Utmost shame on you.

Yes, you.

DM #17 - Berpijak di bumi yang maya

"Apa solusi Islam untuk masalah ekonomi Ustad?"

"Ceramah!"

"Tapi ringgit duk jatuh ni Ustad?"

"Biar jatuh ringgit, jangan jatuh aqidah!"

(Matluthfi90-Twitter)

Layar #9 - A BUGS' LIFE

"But there was that one ant that stood up."

"It was just one ant."

"Those ants outnumber us 100:1. And if they ever figure that out, there goes our way of life. It is not about the food, it's about keeping those ants in lines."

*        *        *

Moga buih-buih di lautan bertukar menjadi ombak kelak. Maafkan kami ya Mustafa.

DM #16 - Negara-Ku, Tanah-Ku

Abah kata arwah Jeddi (atok) dulu, kalau dengar lagu Negara-Ku dalam TV, dia akan terus berdiri tegak.

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Malaysia itself is still young, tapi tanah air ini tidak. We were once a dignified nation, menerajui ekonomi dunia, ilmu agama, ilmu perlautan dan perdagangan.

Selamat hari merdeka ke-58

DM #15 - SI SAWAN JIBBY

Dah macam sawan
aku tengok kau ni
menjamah,
mencekik,
melahap,
melantak duit kami.

Kau sawan.

Maaflah,
mana-mana bahagian aku
dalam perut kau tu
tiada halal di situ.

Sebab kau,
ringgit jatuh menlurut.
Sebab kau,
rakan sahabat ikat perut.
Sebab kau,
pengajian kami terbantut.
Sebab kau,
nyawa di udara diragut.

Kau sawan.

Kau bukan pemimpin kami.
Kau pemimpi.

Kau mimpi sorga.
Alih-alih neraka.

Kau sawan.

Moga kau sembuh
dari sawanmu.

DM #14 - WALK THE TALK

Bawak datang la, parti islam ke, harapan baru ke segar ke, keadilan ke keseimbangan ke, umno ke umyes ke umidontcare ke, orang dah tak larat dengar ideologi-ideologi dan fikrah-fikrah kita...

People want to see action.

Kita dah terlampau selesa dengan kumpulan-kumpulan kita. Takut sangat nak bergaul dengan 'orang luar sistem'. Alih-alih kita syok sendiri, rasa dah banyak sangat amal bakti, sedangkan 'orang luar sistem' tak merasa apa pun.

Pergilah masak bersama Dapur Jalanan, bersama menyahut kerja aktivis Syed Azmi, menyokong cerpen-cerpen naskah Puteh Press dan Rabaklit, berganding bahu dengan Alam Flora membersihkan tanah air kita.

Tak mahu... kecil sangat... nak jugakk posisi pimpinan tu... seronok bersorak sokong itu ini.

Semua orang akan benci kerajaan tak kira siapa memegang. So be the best NGO serving the nation.

Tak semua terima ni...

Thoughts #27 - HOPES

You looked at Zach and Rachel King, and you thought "that's it."

#sedangkanyangbukanpenyembahpundapatrahmat
#inikanpulayangmenyembah
#senyumsikit :)

Auf der Flucht - Fiktion und Wirklichkeit

Eines Tages hörst du im Radio, dass in Wien Schüsse gefallen sind. Regierungsgegner kämpfen vor dem Schloss Schönbrunn gegen das Militär ...

Stell dir vor, du lebst im Innviertel, bist etwas Politik-uninteressiert und verfolgst nicht das tägliche innenpolitische Geschehen. Eines Tages hörst du im Radio, dass in Wien Schüsse gefallen sind. Regierungsgegner kämpfen vor dem Schloss Schönbrunn gegen das Militär. Gebäude werden bombardiert und in die Luft gesprengt, Menschen werden getötet.

Es dauert nicht lange, bis auch in deiner Gemeinde die ersten Menschen gegeneinander kämpfen. Du wirst gefragt, zu welcher Seite eigentlich du gehörst. Dein Wohnhaus wird bombardiert, weil irgendjemand dort wohnt, der sich bereits für eine der beiden Seiten entschieden hat und die anderen ihm das übelgenommen haben. Bevor du überhaupt in den Trümmern nach Überlebenden deiner Familie oder ein paar Habseligkeiten suchen kannst, wird auch auf dich die Jagd eröffnet. Von beiden Seiten, weil du ja eigentlich gar nicht genau weißt, worum es überhaupt geht. Du bist auf der Flucht.

Du fliehst, ...

Du fliehst, weil Menschen dir nach deinem Leben trachten. Und du weißt nicht, wohin. Du verkaufst deine Uhr, ein Geschenk deiner Frau zur Hochzeit, um dein Leben einem Menschen anzuvertrauen, der dich in ein anderes Land schmuggeln kann, wo kein Krieg herrscht. Dein Handy behältst du, somit kannst du vielleicht von irgendwo ja doch noch Kontakt zur Heimat herstellen. Du schlägst dich durch in ein anderes Land, wo du jetzt eigentlich auch nicht willkommen bist.

... sie beschimpfen dich

Sie beschimpfen dich als Schmarotzer, der seine Heimat in Stich gelassen hat. Trotzdem würdest du dich dem Land gegenüber, in das du dich gerettet hast, gerne dankbar zeigen und arbeiten, aber das darfst du nicht, du bist nämlich "Asylant". Menschen finden, dass sogar die Zelte, in denen du jetzt schlafen kannst, viel zu großer Luxus für dich sind. Das hast du als Vaterlandsverräter nämlich nicht verdient!

Fabian Grabner. 10.06.2015. DerStandart

PEMURAH

"Sometimes those who have less are the ones who give more."
(Unknown)

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Applicable not only in terms of money, but also in terms of knowledge...

Masalah manusia #21 - OPFER

rasa-rasa jeles dengan kejayaan seseorang, ce jenguk sikit pengorbanan dia...
ada nampak?
Tak nampak kan? Memang pun...

Beza anjing kecil dengan anjing besar, anjing besar tenang ja... chiwawa ja yang banyak menyalak. Nyaring. Bising lagi membingitkan.

Circle #15 - SUSUN

Syera:

A successful work is a result of making the right decision. To make the right decision you need experience. To have experience you need to make mistakes.

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Kalau 1st time buat terus betul, tu bukan sebab kau hebat sangat. Tu Allah bagi can tu, belanja motivasi satu ikat tepi :)

Thoughts #26 - ASK

Du hättest nur fragen sollen.

Vermutung ist gefährlich.

Und ich?

Ich bleibe schweigen.

But of which river?

"Nur wer gegen den Strom swimmt, kommt zur Quelle."
(Anon)

"Only he who swims against the tide, gets to the source."

"Hanya dia yang berenang melawan arus akan sampai ke pangkal."

FIND THE KEY

"Auch eine schwere Tür hat nur einen kleinen Schlüssel nötig."
(Charles Dickens)

"Even the heavy door only needs one small key"

*      *      *

I guess, the key is there, it's just the matter of trust...

Ameen #19 - UBAN

Abah started to use chair for qiam. Tak boleh nak maintain balance pagi-pagi.
Ummi started to use it as well, for taraweh.

I started to panic.

DM #13 - DUIT RAKYAT

Suatu pagi di Tabung Haji, sedang dalam berurusan pemindahan duit akaun simpanan ummi.

Pakcik Kaunter: Isi sebab nak pindahkan duit kat sini ye puan?

Ummi: Baik.

Pakcik Kaunter: maaf lah ye puan, Bank Negara ni polisi dia kalau lebih 20,000 dia akan tanya sebab pengeluaran. Ha... tapi kalau keluarkan 70juta takpa, tu dia tak tanya

Tergelak kami di kaunter. Baik punya pakcik tu bagi, zasss... Rakyat marah wei. Pandai lah hg jawab nnt di akhirat sana

FÜR UNS ALLE

"Tuhan
Jangan kau izin aku lupa
Jangan kau biarkan aku mendepang dada
Pasakkan hatiku pada kaki
Paksakan ku tunduk sehingga mati."

(Terbang Tunduk, Fynn Jamal)

DM #11 - POTENTIALS

Malaysia has so much potentials. So so much that it hurts to see the majority has gone wasted.

Blessed are our people, those yang tak cakap banyak, tapi buat banyak.

Ameen #18 - Of Kids and Telekung Dewasa

That moment, when you jenuh cari telekung for Mak Lang, only to find it worn by a 9 year-old girl (real feel: 5 yrs old) and you try not to pengsan sebab comey ngat aih!

Minion mana litup putih habih ni wei...

ANGST

"The enemy is fear. We think it is hate, but it is fear."
(Gandhi)

Thoughts #25 - LAGI...

Never thought there would be so much turning points in life.

No wonder Allah loves Taubah...

DM #10 - STUCK FOR ANSWERS

The same night,
before that pagi raya,
the same insomnia,
before that dawn came.

The same dilemma,
that lingers inside your mind,
asking for answers,
expecting for dreams.

Then it came ponder,
had the Month gone to waste?
two consequitives years
and yet still the same?

The same dilemma,
The same test,
Different person,
Different year.

Have you not learn?

Dumb, Blind, Stumm
And yet that chants you still humm.

Ameen #17 - SORRY, HO

Pukul 4 pagi. Miho bagi salam tadi kat tingkap. Nak bagi dia masuk, tapi takut Yam kena asthma. Maka kembali diam di dalam selimut.

Lama Miho bagi salam. Ketuk-ketuk tingkap. Ikut hati nak ja aku buka tingkap ni.

5 minit tak dengar bunyi. Tiba-tiba...

Dengar bunyi kuat kucing bergaduh.

*       *       *

Macam mana kau rasa, minta tolong tapi tiada siapa menyahut...

Thoughts #24 - MALU

Masalah bila duduk sorang ni, kita ingat kita dah banyak berubah,
bila balik rumah di malaysia baru sedar, ooo... rupanya kau x berubah pun lagi... ilusi sendiri rupanya selama 9 bulan yang lepas ni.

Perangai buruk serba karat masih melekat kuat di lubuk jiwa jasad mu. Jahiliyyah lagi busuk. Nak nak terhadap adik-adik mu sendiri.

Ameen #16 - Of Malaysia and Cicak Toys

Cicak plastik should be illegal all over Malaysia.

Tak larat jerit dah ni. Tak sangka jantung sekuat ini...

Thoughts #23 - HARAM = HALAL ?

Sometimes you are just too good at pretending to the extend that that could even fool yourself.

But you forget, you can never fool God.

LIEBE

O Allah, ich bitte Dich um Deine Liebe, die Liebe derer, die Dich lieben, und das Verrichten von Taten, die mir Deine Liebe bescheren. Lass meine Liebe zu Dir größer sein als meine Liebe zu mir selbst, meinem Besitz, meiner Familie und zu kühlem Wasser.

Überliefert von At-Tarmidhi und Al-Hakim

Vienna #31 - BAHASA JIWA BANGSA

Angin malam tu agak kuat, serba-salah kami menaiki tangga U-Bahn, skirt berterbangan liar agak sukar dikawal. Lalu Aisya...

'Ni bukan angin sepoi-sepoi bahasa ni, ni angin tak reti bahasa!'

Aku hanya mampu gelak kuat sedang Austrian lain tidak mengerti.

Ameen #15 - TART DURIAN

Once I baked a tray of goodness blueberry jam tarts and chilled 'em cuties in the fridge.

Esok tu buka peti rasa nak menangis laju-laju tengok tart semua bertukar macam sailormoon aromanya. Ntah minion-minion mana dalam rumah pi masukkan durian dalam peti. Rosak woi tart aku!

DM #9 - JUAL NEGARA

Abah pernah kata,
orang-orang di atas tu,
semua dah kena tindik hidung mereka,
macam lembu,
ditarik ke sana ke mari,
mengikut tuannya.

They all have shaked hands with the devil.

Archi #32 - ARROGANT

Sem yang sangat lingkup, segala plan ke laut.

Dalam 9 targeted paper, hanya 2 lulus. Dalam 2 Studio, kedua-dua fail. Dalam min. 30 ECTS yg patut dikumpul utk sem ni, dpt kumpul 3 ECTS sahaja.

- dalam sem mana nak sumbat paper-paper lain ni?
- extend lagi sem, sbb studio?
- I thought I did pray to You?
- After all the effort?
- Duit extend MARA nak habis lg sebulan, so nak guna duit ummi abah for all these failure?
- Why You even let these happens?

.

Nah. Ayat pertama tadabbur hari ni...

"Dan Dia telah memberikan kepadamu segala apa yang kamu mohonkan kepada-Nya. Dan jika kamu menghitung nikmat Allah, nescaya kamu tidak akan mampu menghitungnya. Sungguh, manusia itu sangat zalim dan sangat mengingkari (nikmat Allah)." (14:34)

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so you were saying just now...?

Masalah manusia #20 - THE RAINBOW FLAG

God created Adam and Eve.
not Adam and Steve.

Masalah manusia #19 - NAFS

The Almighty has created the angels with intellect but without sexual desires.

The Almighty has created animal with sexual desires but without intellect.

The Almighty has created mankind with both intellect as well as sexual desires.

So whoever's intellect rises above his desires joins the ranks of the angels and whoever's desires overpower his intellect drops to the level of animals.

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Notice that, ni tak da kena mengena dengan syaitan. Ni nafsu dan diri semata...

Masalah manusia #18 - efficiency dalam hidup

Tidak akan masuk syurga seseorang anak adam itu sebelum ditanya tentang 4 perkara:

1. tentang umurnya, di mana ia habiskan.
2. tentang masa mudanya, di mana ia diusangkan.
3. tentang hartanya, dari mana ia mendapatnya dan ke mana ia habiskan.
4. apa yang telah ia amalkan daripada ilmunya.

Circle #14 - SYOK SENDIRI

"Islam came to change us from the inside and not just our appearance from the outside"

- Ustadh Nouman Ali Khan-

Vienna #30 - IFTAR JAMAIE 1

Sebaik sahaja keluar dari toilet seusai solat subuh...

"Tak tahu nak kata apa... dunia akhir zaman LGBT ni." ujar Aishah Kamal.

"Horror doe... it is a disease... tak tahu kalau Malaysia legalise benda tu nanti macam mana." tambah Aisya Shafie.

Tak tahu macam mana nak menyelit dalam perbualan masalah ummat ni, aku melewati mereka, terus mencapai tudung di atas meja.

"Apasal pakai tudung?"

"Aku decide untuk tutup aurat aku depan kau."

"Kau dah kenapaaa..."

"Hahaha... Tak laa... aku nak baca ma'thurat ni." sambil senyum kambing.

SUBMISSION

"Ana romyun
Min rimayatil islam
Farmii
Ainama shi'ta"

(Saad ibnu Waqqas)

Aku anak panah
Dari panah-panah islam
Maka lemparkan aku
Ke mana saja Kau mahu

Archi #32 - KHEIR

"Wie geht's dir?"

"Alhamdulillah"

Alhamdulillah is a gift from Allah. Good pun alhamdulillah, bad pun alhamdulillah. Either way, kheir. You praise and put your trust on Him.

Archi #31 - MOHON EMO KEJAP :)

That moment, when the vast majority of your friends post with hashtags #roadtograduation #finalthesis #convocation in social media, and you with such optimism saying to yourself "it's okay... 1.5 more sem..." and moment later received message from your studio partner stating that your 4months studio for the semester, according to your prof, would be a failure.

So here are my hashtags:
#profkataprojekkaupalinglemah
#berapasemlaginakkenaextendlagini
#nangislajulajupuntakguna
#depakatastudykateuropenienjoy
#silalahstudydieurope
#paperberduyunlagitakcover
#paperrepeatapatahlagi
#germanlanguage
#takgradgrad
#jangantanyabilaakuakanhabis
#jangantanyadahtahunkeberapa
#emo
#sekian

Circle #13 - OPFER DER LIEBE

Ibadarurrahman ni ada 10 golongan. 25: 63-74

Syera:

Core dia is to attain cinta kepada Allah. Cinta can never be attain without mujahadah. Korban.

.

You can say that you love Him, tapi kalau korban tidoq pun xmau, payah la..

Ameen #14 - LADY BOSS BACK IN ACTION :)

"Da... awak jangan lupa beli cili turki dengan bulgur tu. Mak Lang nak jugak."

"Ok, Ummi."

"And Giotto and Amicello tu jugak."

"Ok, Mi."

"Ma... awak beli quinoa yang kat Dales tu tau."

"Coles la, Mi."

"Sama la tu Ma, janji ada 'les' dekat belakang."

"Ok, Mi."

"Am... awak jangan lupa beli ayam. Then siang siap-siap. Tinggalkan separuh untuk petang ni."

"Ok, Mi."

.

Sorang balik isnin lepas, ahad ni sorang lagi. Isnin depan lagi sorang.

You know she is so looking forward to have her kids back home when she starts giving orders back... from whatsapp lagi hah. Never been so happy to read it, let alone to do the chores.
Kecil-kecil dulu kami yang selalu minta Ummi Abah tu ni, it's time to give back :)

Circle #12 - BOOMERANG

Kak Lisa:

Kalau kita nak Allah maafkan kita, maka kita pun kenalah maafkan orang lain.

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"Dan Allah hendak menerima taubatmu, sedang orang-orang yang mengikuti hawa nafsunya bermaksud supaya kamu berpaling sejauh-jauhnya (dari kebenaran)." (4:27)

Circle #11 - LAPAQ GILA

Nak kata puasa tahun ni sangat challenging lapar dia... time tadarus di skype, tak perasan diri sendiri tgh rap sorang-sorang.

"Dush dush dush... "

Paling best, tak perasan lupa nak mute. Dah kena gelak... Malu sorok belakang Qur'an.

Clearly hunger brings you to unconciousness and insanity.

Vienna #29 - HOW ?

That moment, when Ramadhan reveals your trueself day by day and you just tersentak tak tau nak buat apa...

Literally. Like peeling the onion.

Help.

Please.

Ameen #13 - BETIK

Pernah dulu, tak bagi abah kait buah betik belakang dapur. Sebab kata tu tupai punya. Nanti dia nangis betik favourite dia dah takda.

All the betik from that tree were the sweetest I've ever taste.

Abah selalu akan check betik sebelum dikait. Tiap kali nampak betik dah ditebuk oleh sang burung, tiap kali tu aku senyum  happy tak terhingga. Yeay! Tupai dapat betik ni!

:)

Thoughts #22 - LIVING UMMI'S DREAM

I would like to have a dusun buah...
an orchard
for the trees to grow
for the birds to sleep
for the squirrels to play.

I would like to have a dusun buah...
an orchard
kerana berbakti itu bukan hanya
terbatas pada manusia
tapi jua
buat tanah, asal kita.

Masalah manusia #17 - KABUR

Jokes are funny because men are by nature impatient and full of misunderstanding.

May Allah protect us all

Masalah manusia #16 - SOROK DALAM ALMARI

"Do you know what's scary about Ramadhan?"

"What?"

"Discovering that it's actually yourself, not the shaytaan."
.

It has been only 3 days... berapa hari lagi ni nak kena tahan malu dgn diri sendiri... you got no shaitonirojim to blaim

Circle #10 - PRISON

"If our 'love' for something makes us willing to give up our family, our dignity, our self-respect, our bodies, our sanity, our peace of mind, our deen, and even our Lord who created us from nothing, know that we are not 'in love'. We are slaves."

Reclaim Your Heart, Yasmin Mogahed

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.
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Coz Islam liberates you from slavery

Masalah manusia #15 - DIAGNOSE ME, DOC...

Pain in the chest
Stark pound in the heart
Lump in the throat
Unsettle in the mind
Hopes n mares in the dream
Lost in the prayers

Circle #9 - BERMANFAAT KPD ORG LAIN

"Meet the people in such a manner that if you die, they should weep for you, and if you live, they should long for you."
(Ali Ibn Abi Talib r.a.)

Sebab islam ajar utk berkongsi...
coz to us, individualism is a No-Go  :)

Circle #8 - BERLIAN STUTTGART

"Bukanlah kesabaran, jika masih mempunyai batas. Bukanlah ikhlas, jika masih merasa sakit."

Teruskan berusaha ke arah itu.

Circle #7 - KELENGKAPAN

" Barangsiapa naik panggung tanpa persiapan, ia akan turun panggung dengan kehinaan."
(Shakespeare)

Circle #6 - 24jam sehari, 7hari seminggu

Hari ini ditanya soalan penampar ke muka : 'Darf ich dich was fragen? ist die uni für dich nicht zur zeit wichtiger?'

Bilamana orang dah start minta kau rujuk balik prioriti kau dalam menyusun aktiviti-aktiviti harian mahupun mingguan mu...

Ni belum lagi masuk tahap orang kata kau gila, dan kau dah start doubt. Am I doing it wrong?

Mungkin prioriti tu dah betul, tapi masa rehat kau masih lagi jatuh di bawah kategori: banyak.

Vienna #28 - BALANCE

All these 6 years here you were taught to embrace the realistic and slow down on the optimistic, no go to pessimistic.

In the end, your thoughts, words n action are as a matter of fact, doa.

Try swallow that, Huda. Digest if you may.

Archi #30 - STUCK

Creativity and Skill are two different things.

So do Depression and Sadness.

Ameen #12 - DOA

Kenapa kecil-kecil dulu kalau lupa baca doa masuk tandas, sanggup keluar tandas balik semata-mata untuk baca doa, walaupun nak menangis azab tahan buang air kecil, dan sekarang dah lain?

Ameen #11 - IMIGINASI

Masa kecik dulu antara benda paling enjoy ialah perjalanan balik kampung KL-Permatang Sintok. Tiga beradik baring di seat belakang sambil kaki masing-masing disandarkan ke cermin tingkap kereta. Kecik2 dulu, rambut itu aurat... seluaq dalam, tidak. Lol.

Bermain dengan sahabat bayangan kami (baca: imaginary friend). Tak tahu berapa kali ummi dok baca fatihah dan yasin memikirkan perihal kami bertiga.

Berlumba-lumba figure out formation awan-awan tu menyerupai apa. Kejap rimau la, pokok la, kasut la... alhamdulillah tak accident, abah pun dok syok main sama.

Ntah mana pergi segala kebolehan berimiginasi tu sekarang. Pity...

Masalah manusia #14 - ICH VERSTEHE NICHTS

Ada pernah sekali tu kena ambil peperiksaan General Knowledge (Pengetahuan Am) di UK, ketika mendaftar masuk ke sekolah di sana bagi memudahkan proses pengkelasan murid-murid. Tika tu umur baru 11 tahun.

'What is the colour of coal.'
A. White
B. Yellow
C. Pink
D. Black

Satu jam berperang cuba meyakinkan diri bahawa sesungguhnya itu typo.

Depa nak tulih coat.

C. Pink

Rasa bodoh sangat bila ummi kata coal itu arang. Down sehari. Ntah-ntah seminggu. Atau sebulan. Mana nak ingat.

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Kadang tu, bukan kita tak tahu. Kita just tak faham.

WWK #11 - RUSSIANIZATION

Hudochka Hameedova

Memang aku bagi nama Kalsom jugak kat Kristina ni...

Archi #29 - LETZTE KORREKTUR

Tell me the definition of success. I wanna know. Bagitahu aku. Depan muka aku.

Supaya aku tunduk melutut. Rebah. Malu.

Thoughts #21 - NOCH SCHNELLER GEHT NIMMER, ODA?

Kau risau untuk jaga hati, sedangkan jika hati itu sudah basah kuyup lenjun dek rendaman air mata kauthar, ia yang akan menjaga mu.

Kadang, benda yang kita paling risau tu yang selamatkan kita. If you know where to fix...

Extro #4 - WRAPPED

Being an extrovert, you hardly can control your output, be it expression of ideas, emotion, or just laughing out loud and making tons of 'friends'.

Maka kau Allah campak ke sini. Nikmat pertuturan kau ditarik seketika. Keupayaan menarik kawan hasil gelak-tawa dan lawak kau diambil.

Allah paksa kau guna deria pendengaran. Mendengar dan menganalisa, tanpa boleh membidas. Kawan-kawan kau secara tidak langsung ditapis oleh situasi.

Kebolehan kau dibaluti oleh anasir-anasir ego, exaggeration, etc. Pembalut penuh virus. Selapis demi selapis Allah buka, Allah buang, Allah cuci.

When you are in sickness, any kind of treatments is bitter and painful.

Dan bila kau imbas kembali zaman-zaman itu, kau sedar... buruknya penyakit itu.

Terima kasih.

Masalah manusia #13 - Neraka laman sosial

That moment, when your handphone slip off your hand and you thought that u made a good catch before it hits the ground, only to realise that you have, at the very same time, accidentally clicked that LIKE button.

Syabas, Huda.

Thoughts #20 - AWAY

It's that time of the year where you are no where near the real world again...

Ameen #10 - Off Ummi and Doa

Di suatu hari...

Aku: Dia datang rumah Pak Ngah sorang-sorang, ummi... cool kot! Kak Tikah kata Mak Ngah berkenan dah... untungla kak tikaah~~

Ummi: bila ada orang nak datang jumpa ummi sorang-sorang pulak?

'Ummi doa la.'

'Okay ummi doa.'

'Tapi ummi jangan la doa sekali dengan nama spesifik. '

'Alaaaa.... kenapa tak boleh doa spesifik namaa...'

'Alaa... Nanti dia akan menutup segala possibilties orang lain untuk uda...'

'Alaaaa....'

'Ummi jangan la pleaseee'

'Okey la... ummi tak doa sekali dengan nama.'

Fuhh... settle... u dont play with mother's doa.

Happy Ummis' Day :)

Circle #5 - KENAPA SEKARANG?

Apabila langkah kau mula untuk pecutan maju dan jahiliyyah mu yang dahulu mengetuk pintu bertalu-talu lalu kau menyambutnya seperti sahabat lama tidak ketemu.

Let loose of my legs, please. You are holding me back. I got a train to catch up.

Layar #8 - FOOLED BY YOUR LIES

"Hardest time to lie to somebody is when they're expecting to be lied to."

- The Imitation Game -

Layar #7 - UNDERESTIMATE

"Sometimes it is the people who no one imagines anything of who do the things that no one can imagine."

- The Imitation Game -

Archi #28 - DAGING CINCANG HALAL

Rasa macam nak menyorok bawah meja  tadi waktu pembentangan projek Studio Gebäudelehre, tengok group lain kena hentam teruk dengan external prof and supervisor group kami. Sambil menunggu giliran kami, aku menoleh ke studio partner.

Aku: Depa hentam kita macam mince meat wei...
Partner: Kau halal version

Jenuh tahan gelak dalam kegusaran. Gitu~

Thoughts #19 - HEAVY

O Allah, I think I'm just too tired to ask You 'why' over and over again.

Everything seems to be heavy.

Extro #3 - SUPPORT ?

It's always scary to be alone,
of ghost,
named reality,

and knowing that
you have to face it on your own.

Once again.

BERHENTI SEKEJAP

"When you stop chasing the wrong things, you give the right things a chance to catch you."

(Anonymous)

Circle #4 - FAHAM & SOKONG

Api yang semarak menyala, merebak lagi membakar itu tak kan dapat ditewaskan jika tiada yang bangun dari tidur yang nyenyak,
jika si sedar tidak mengejutkan si lena,
dan jika si kuat tiada untuk mengangkat baldi air.

Demikian peranan kita. Pilihlah ikut kapasiti masing-masing.

Archi #27 - Studio Gebäudelehre

The only good thing about studio is that your perut went drastically kempis-ed.

Archi #27 - Studio Gebäudelehre

The only good thing about studio is that your perut went drastically kempis-ed.

LU #2 - REPEATING THE PAST ?

Liebe Ummi,

you must have missed bendang with Tok Wan and Tok Ah yelling at you. You must have waited like hell for Mak Chaq's letters. You must have cried inside seeing your bank statement. You must have hated english just like how i hate german. You must have doubt chemistry?

You must have wanted to talk to Him. And Him to hug you and say, it's alright.

liebe Grüße,
dein Erstes

Circle #3 - RASAKSA ? RAKSASA ?

Disebabkan unggun api kami semalam sangatlah besar (mampu memanaskan 25 orang budak... hitam...) di tambah pula langit yang hitam pekat, you just can't help but to stare at those huge monster in front of you sambil tergamam. Beautiful. Rasa macam kapasiti deria pendengaran semua shift kepada penglihatan semalam.

'Oh my God... They all have the same pattern in consuming those wooden sticks.'

1st time amaze dengan api, bara especially. Patut la agama majusi ni wujud.

Archi #26 - ARCHI SGT ~

Semalam fail buat/bina unggun api, susun tuku apatah lagi. Ada hati nak masuk studio Gebäudelehre (Building Theory) esok. Pfft...

Patut la exam Hochbau (structural engineering) tak pass-pass, 2 kali fail. Prinsip Urwald drei Stäbchen aufeinander ke laaauuuut.

Dah. Aku nak balik, kawen, jaga lembu.

Thoughts #18 - DIE ANGST

Most of the people's choices in their everyday life are driven by fear.

Just like greed, fear have the exact same power. The moment the enemy knows you have no fear (nor greed), depa awal-awal minta berdamai dan berjabat tangan.

Not because they acknowledge you. They know they just can't buy you.

Bijak.

LU #1 - VERTRAUEN

Liebe Ummi,

ehrlich gesagt, kann ich mir überhaupt nicht vorstellen, wie du mich hier in Österreich allein verlassen hast. Dein Vertrauen an Ihm musste so groß sein wie der Berg von Everest, oder noch größer... doch, größer.

Du bist die Erste, die mir Tawakkal beigebracht hast.

liebe Grüße,
dein Erstes

Circle #2 - UNGGUN API

Mereka dari Czech Republic, France, Poland, Germany dan Austria turun padang.

Selalunya aku lemas dengan manusia (ironi utk Extrovert mcm aku)

Tapi tak dengan hati-hati yang sincere ni :)
Makin dewasa, makin kau tolak segala drama. Makin kau cari something concrete to invest all your potentials and capabilities on to.

Thoughts #17 - SAME SHIT

Agaknya sebab tu kot Al-Quran tu ever green.

It tacles the essence of the problems while dates, venue, and nations are almost neglected. To show that, you people've been facing the same freaking problem day in day out.

Sampai iblis pun naik boring siyut.

Ameen #9 - BYE, CAMOUFLAGE

One of the greatest gift that He gives us are siblings and our similarities and differences, within the boundaries of our commonness.

To know that, there is someone like you on the other part of the world, facing the exact same essence of the problem, but with different situation, age, generation and gender.

It is not that we are trying to be different, neither do we want to get out of the main stream. It is just that when you decide to be you, you realize that everywhere else are mere pretentious.

Vienna #27 - STUDENT AGENCY BUS

Naik bas ke Czech Republic dan keliru samada hang naik bas atau kapal terbang.

Dengan tambang bas hanya sejumlah €13, anda berpeluang menikmati servis minuman percuma yang diserve secara individu kerusi ke kerusi, wifi percuma sambil menikmati keselesaan kerusi kulit, tandas, surat khabar (boleh acah-acah baca buat-buat faham bahasa czech), pelbagai pilihan movie dan musik.

Ni memang minggu depan depa ada election ke macam mana

Vienna #26 - CARI PASAL

Para Joyah dan Dolah di sini tak ubah seperti Kesatuan Eropah. Seperti tin kosong, bila di ketuk paling kuat bunyinya, sedangkan isinya tiada.

Ameen #8 - MIHO, ANAK ABAH

'Abah balik subuh tadi nampak Tam tido atas perut Miho. Anak-anak Miho yang lain pun tido sekali dengan Tam.' mesej abah di subuh hari, sedang anak sulungnya di bumi sebelah sana masih lagi tak settle-settle isya'.

Tam, seekor bayi buangan, yatim-piatu. Tang mana ntah tiba-tiba wujud di kawasan rumah kami. Aku tuduh Pashi tak mau mengaku tu anak dia. Miho sebagai seorang ibu, bersedia menutup kesalahan anak jantannya itu. Dibelanya si Tam tu.

Hakikatnya, Miho dulu pun dibuang. Sebesar tapak tangan. Abah kutip dari sebuah restoran berdekatan tempat kerjanya.

Kadang, mereka yang pernah merasa ja yang tanpa berfikir panjang bersedia menghulurkan bantuan.

Archi #25 - ENTSCHULDIGUNG

'Ich kann es nicht mehr.'
'Keine Sorge. Nach dem Erschwernis kommt die Erleichterung. (94:6)'

Apabila dia yang 'kau rasa' paling jauh dengan agama cuba menenangkan kau dengan sepotong (terjemahan Jerman) ayatNya.

Dan apabila kau mula sedar, judgement yang kau lontarkan pada dia selama ni, walaupun ianya sekadar di dalam hati dan tak dilafazkan pun, ia tetap dikira judgement.

DAHAGAKAN PUJIAN?

"The sun doesn't ask for applause as it rises because that's what it's supposed to do."
-Anonymous-

Masalah manusia #12 - CINCAI 2

Kalau prof pun boleh ja sesuka hati mak pak dia koyak dan baling model kau, jangan kata solat kau Dia tak boleh baling ke muka kau kat sana nanti.

Cincai. Dia pun tau kau nak jumpa Dia ke tak tadi.

Masalah manusia #11 - CINCAI 1

Macam mana perasaan lepas jawab exam, macam tu juga lah perasaan yang  sama hadir lepas solat.

Boleh predict kot gagal ke lulus. diterima atau ditolak.

Masalah manusia #10 - KERING

1) Akaun kering (baca: minus utk bulan ke-3)

2) hati kering (baca: Sorry not sorry aku tak layan drama takda market. Tak payah susah2 jual kat aku. Not buying. Simpan saja gossip2 umpatan anda. Kalau rasa boleh bawak ngadap tuhan, ha silalah semua tu angkut sekali masuk kubur. Kot-kot kau ingat ada malaikat interested nak dengar.)

3) semester kering (baca: drop satu studio sebab x mampu dah nak push. Exhausted. Extend lagi sem...)

4) Ibadah kering (baca: mana pergi semua yang sunat selama ni kau pulun? Tinggal wajib ja...)

5) Motivasi kering (baca: gagal cubaan untuk mengawal depression... Ya Allah kenapa payah sangat ni)

6) badan kering (baca: constant dehydration)

Nota kecil: There are some people you just feel like to vomit seeing their faces. Like literally. All their characters burst out from every inch of their faces, from the eyes, the mouth everywhere. They just cant hide it. And you just cant help but to notice it. Pure disgust.

BRAIN FACTORY

Came across this from Fil's IG and found it so relevant till this day

"And the people in the houses,
all went to the university,
where they were put in boxes,
and they came out all the same,
and there's doctors and lawyers,
and bussiness executives,
and they're all made out of ticky tacky,
and they all look just the same."

-Little boxes, Malvina Reynolds-

NO GO

"We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them"

-Albert Einstein-

TIPU DIRI

"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."
-Albert Einstein-

kalau rasa lifestyle yg digunapakai sekarang ni boleh bawa anda anak bini ke jannah, silalah istiqomah dengannya sehingga ke liang lahad.

UMMI

"I've always known my mom loves me

But will never know how much"

-matluthfi90-

Thouhts #16 - GARDEN OF EDEN

Truth is,
you never really were home.
All that was here,
a sanctuary,
for the journey home.

COUNT DOWN PUASA :)

"The hunger of the poor cannot be shared by clicking the share button.

Fasting like one might."

-Matluthfi90-

Circle #1 - BETTER

Fil:
Kita berdoa. Lalu Allah hantarkan insan-insan disisi kita yang kita sangkakan akan membantu kita capai impian, matlamat, doa kita selama ini. Bila tak dapat apa yang kita doakan, kita tersentak. Dah kenapa Allah hantar mereka ni untuk aku? Bukan depa tolong capai goal pun...

Walhal Allah menghantar mereka buat kita
menjawab doa kita
untuk menjelaskan
itu sebenarnya bukan goal kau.
Mari sini Aku tunjukkan yang lebih baik.

Kalaulah kita berfikir :)

Masalah manusia #9 - PERASAN

There's a fine line between direct and sarcasm. A german can be direct. But a malay could pretend that he/she kononnya adopt german's direct attitude and channel it in the most sarcastic way, paihtu claim kata hang direct.

Lawak apakah ini

Thoughts #15 - MAßSTAB

We live in a world where things are either so overrated or so underrated.

Apabila manusia yang menentukan skala.

Vienna #25 - MINUS

Seperti yang dijangka hampir 2 tahun yang lalu, hari sesak duit sedunia telah tiba. Dah 2 bulan berturut-turut minus ni. Terima kasih Allah atas peluang merasa kesempitan yang tak berapa nak sempit jikalau dibandingkan dengan orang lain.

Alhamdulillah :)

WWK #10 - RUSSIAN LOGIC

Aku: Dok sembang dengan Iju, come up dengan idea yang agak cool.

Kristina: Apa dia?

Aku: Ambil pengkhususan military. Iju dok mention pentagon, etc. Bahaya ke kau rasa?

Kristina: kalau kau design military building n military base untuk aku, kau orang 1st aku terpaksa bunuh.

Vienna #24 - SOALAN #23

Adakah aku baju-baju yang mewangikan atau cardigan yang diwangikan itu? Atau, bukan dua-duanya sekali.

Busuk, membusukkan atau dibusukkan.

Vienna #23 - tukang besi vs penjual minyak wangi

1Cardigan agak busuk yang lupa untuk dibasuh sekali bersama baju-baju lain itu aku lemparkan kembali ke dalam bakul. Bakul yang sama aku gunakan untuk mengangkat baju-baju bersih lagi wangi daripada dryer.

Seminggu tertunggak misi melipat baju. Time lipat baju baru sedar cardigan yang belum dibasuh itu masih di dalam bakul.

Aksi spontan mencium baunya. Hmm... wangi.

RE-BIRTH

"When we were born, we cried. And sometimes when we cry, we are born again." (Unknown)

WWK #9 - BLIND

Di suatu petang, makan malam terakhir sebelum dia bergelar seorang isteri:

"Ada satu scene dlm cerita sci-fi ni aku tengok dengan stefan, dia macam ni:

Inside a lab was a newly wed wife of a scientist (A) and the scientist research partner (B).

A: what exactly is this experiment?

B: we attempt to give the creature of what they don't have.

A: meaning?

B: say if a human being can't fly, we grow wings on them. If a cow is colour-blind, we fix the eyes. This worm right here, is our first experiment. Worms have no eyes, so it can't see. We want to develop eyes in them.

A: so you try to play god...

B: I don't believe in god. I believe in science.

There was a silent. The wife was looking at the worm.

A: the worm has no eyes right?

B: no.

A: so it can't see the light.

B: no.

A: it never even knew light exist.

B: no.

A: even though light does exist.

Archi #24 - LOOSER

Siapa ntah suruh aku amik archi ni, aku bunuh dia...

#bunuhdirisendiri
#hashtagtakdafungsi

Ameen #7 - TOLERATION

Yam kata: 'If Allah could tolerate them and give them a chance, why can't we?'

Tak ramai yang nak mendengar. yang analyse dan beri respon apatah lagi. Terima kasih yam untuk mendengar, menganalisa dan memberi feedback.

Jaya #2 ; Archi #24 - REVIEW

Task 1, 80-100 words. Comments and/or interpretation on 'Architecture as Experience' (pg. 4-7):

" 'It is not what a building looks on its opening day, but what it is like thirty years that matters.' - Finish Architect Alvar Aalto. This strong statement quoted from the text, in my opinion, sums up the four-page discussion on 'Architecture as Experience'. His statement not only questions the functionality of a building and its interpretation of the current society (which is discussed widely in the text) but also challenges its sustainability and adaptibility in the future. Architecture is a physical translation as well as a reflection of a society. With the rapidly developing social and living standard of a society, architecture faces many challenges in welcoming as well as adapting to the new wave. It serves as a bridge of time lapse. It is through architecture that we are able to experience a bit of the taste of the great past and the projection of the future of human existence."

That moment, after 6 years of german and you have to submit a 100-words essay in english. 100 ja pun, tapi tak ku sangka aku masih boleh menulis dalam bahasa inggeris. Rasa macam otak digerudi. Pehnaht.

ORIENTED

'pencapaian akedemik tu bukanlah penentu berjayanya hidup seseorang itu atau pun tak. Kita ada banyak manusia-manusia pandai keluar daripada universiti dalam dunia ni tapi end up being someone yang manipulative, menindas dan tak pernah kisah pun pasal orang lain. [...] Kejayaan sepatutnya diukur dengan sejauh mana seseorang itu mampu menyumbang kembali kepada masyarakat.'

Matlutfi90 - Vlog: Soalan Ramalan Pasca SPM

DM #8 - SPM

It pains me to the core to see how people embrace and celebrate the As.

Ilusi buaian mimpi. The false hope.

Masalah manusia #8 - 'AKU TAK KUAT' 'AKU LEMAH'

Sedangkan mereka yang kurang upaya turut berusaha semampu boleh.

Ibarat kisah sang burung berulang-alik mencedok air dengan paruhnya, cuba memadamkan api yang membakar Nabi Ibrahim.

Bila ditanya, mana mungkin dengan air diparuh mu dapat memadamkan api itu?

Sekurang-kurangnya aku telah mencuba dengan segala kudratku, ia menjadi saksi dihadapan Allah nanti.

Paling best aku rasa, burung tu sure tak tau pun Allah dah perintahkan api tu jadi sejuk untuk Nabi Ibrahim.

Masalah manusia #7 - GENERASI PENULIS

Penulis cerpen pendek, the critical thinkers throwing sincere questions be it rhetorical or not.

Mereka yang keluar daripada kepompong drama buaian mimpi ilusi sendiri.

Mereke yang sedar perubahan tak kan mungkin berlaku dengan mengomen, melontarkan pandangan bernas (sekali lagi ilusi sendiri), mengutuk, meluat dan membenci. Di atas meja makan sambil menikmati rezeki Tuhan.

Mereka yang sedar perubahan tak kan mungkin terjadi dengan hanya memuji-muji kejayaan orang lain sambil dengan mudah mengucapkan kata-kata : "Alhamdulillah... inilah dia harapan bangsa. Moga kau kuat dan berjaya mengubah ummat." ... senangnya kau melepaskan tanggungjawab ke atas bahu orang lain, hanya kerana dia mahu untuk keluar dari kepompong dan bekerja. Walhal kita semua khalifah (2:30).

Tanya diri, terencat akal kah kau? Kudung kah kau? Tempang? Buta? Pekak? Miskin kah kau?

Jika tidak, maka bergeraklah!

Sedangkan mereka yang kurang upaya turut berusaha semampu boleh...

WWK #9 - BALING BUNGA

Suatu petang di talian Skype AT-DE:

'Aku dah beli baju kahwin masa kat Russia minggu lepas, dengan mak aku.'

'Waaaah!!'

'Warna dia putih, cream-cream.'

'Waaaah!!'

'And bila aku sampai Vienna nanti kita kena cari kasut kahwin aku.'

'Waaaah!!'

'And aku nak bagitau kau ni pasal wedding nanti. Time pengantin kena baling banquet bunga, aku nak baling kat kau. Kau kena sambut!'

'Waaaah!!'

'Kau tahu tak maksud dia apa, siapa yang dapat tangkap bunga tu, she will be the next one to get married.'

*pengsan*

To many kejutan in one call...

Thoughts #14 - CALLER

Dengar balik lagu-lagu Raihan dulu-dulu ni buat rasa nak nangis sangat, lirik dia...

Too many hopes in their lyrics... way too many.

Berat dada.

Extro #2 - SHUT UP n OBSERVE

Betullah kata orang,

the less you open your mouth, the better your eyes and ear can function.

Brain, the most.

DREAM

'When I looked down at this golden statue, may it remind me and every little child that no matter where you're from your dreams are valid.'

Lupita Nyong'o of 12 Years a Slave on 86th Oscar 2014

Ameen #6 - ANOTHER WENDEPUNKT

Skype dgn Yam, cerita habis semua ke dia apa jadi harini.

'Selagi awak tak overcome test yang ni, awak tak kan dapat apa yang awak nak.'

'Siapa dia nak tentukan uda boleh dapat ke tak apa uda nak?! ... then again, uda yang set the situation like that.'

'See?'

Hijrah diri. Turning point.

Vienna #22 - DAH TIBA, DER WENDEPUNKT.

Something knocked out my heart
saying that
whatever I've learned
all these while
would be nothing
if I don't put it to practice.

You could claim you understand it
a thousand times
but as long as you don't do it
you actually don't quite get it.

Cukuplah dengan bercakap lebat, Huda.
Dah tiba masanya.

The Turning Point.

Vienna #21 - TOO LATE

Try picture this in your head:

1) " Dan orang-orang yang kafir, bagi mereka neraka Jahanam. Mereka tidak dibinasakan hingga mereka mati, dan tidak diringankan dari mereka azabnya. Demikianlah Kami membalas setiap orang yang sangat kafir."

2) "Dan mereka berteriak di dalam neraka itu, 'Ya Tuhan kami, keluarkanlah kami (dari neraka), nescaya kami akan mengerjakan kebajikan, yang berlainan dengan yang telah kami kerjakan dahulu.' (Dikatakan kepada mereka), 'Bukankah Kami telah memanjangkan umurmu untuk dapat berfikir bagi orang yang mau berfikir, padahal telah datang kepadamu seorang pemberi peringatan? Maka rasakanlah (azab Kami), dan bagi orang-orang zalim tidak ada seorang penolong pun."

3) "Sungguh, Allah mengetahui yang ghaib (tersembunyi) di langit dan di bumi. Sungguh, Dia Maha Mengetahui segala isi hati.

4) Fatir 35: 36-38

Kalau rasa tak boleh nak imagine sangat macam mana depa berteriakan dalam neraka, dengar cara Smeagel jerit time kena seksa dalam cerita Lord of The Rings pun dah cukup kot. Tu pun 0.00000001 % ja kot.

Vienna #20 - SYUKUR

Attitude orang masuk syurga:

1) " (Mereka akan mendapat) syurga 'Adn, mereka masuk ke dalamnya, di dalamnya mereka diberi perhiasan gelang-gelang dan emas dan mutiara, dan pakaian mereka di dalamya adalah sutera."

2) "Dan mereka berkata, ' Segala puji bagi Allah yang telah menghilangkan kesedihan dari kami. Sungguh, Tuhan kami benar-benar Maha Pengampun, Maha Mensyukuri,

3) yang dengan karunia Nya menempatkan kami dalam tempat yang kekal (syurga); di dalamnya kami tidak merasa lelah dan tidak pula merasa lesu."

4) Fatir 35: 33-35

They are just too thankful, too happy that God does forgive them. They are thankful that He except all their effort, penat, semua just to be with Him. Exhausted kot dunia ni.

WWK #8 - SUPPORT

'I passed structural engineering and wing assembly'

'I'm so happy for you.'

'With a 3 and a 2.'

'Noooo... Oh my God, that's so great.'

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1) Teringat sem lepas, sem paling killer setakat ni, dengan 4 studio dan workshop. Ditambah dengan lecture-lecture yang tak mampu nak cover. Usrah kita dan usrah adik-adik lagi. Adik-adik tak mau reply message tak payah cerita la.

3) Rahang kejang, sakit belakang, muka sakit, migrain, emosi swing, overnight di TU, tiap kali balik rumah berat dada, bercucuran air mata, rasa keseorangan yang teramat, depression and loneliness , sakit bahu dan tangan akibat mengangkut dan membina model ke sana ke mari, dan lain-lain kejadian buatkan badan tak mampu tampung stress.

4) To the extend that kau minta satu ja dekat Allah, Allah aku pohon Kau, tolong jangan bagi aku gila. Dont ever let me loose my sanity, please. Send me your support.

5) Dan Allah makbulkan doa ku. Doa ummi, abah iman yam. Kristina datang stay hampir sebulan kerana pembedahan gigi di sini untuk kali ke-3 tak silap aku. Dia tak dapat tolong banyak dengan kerja. Dia sendiri lemah, lepas pembedahan gig. But the moral and spiritual support was there.

6) Ada sekali tu, aku balik penat sangat. Exhausted. Dalam otak tak payah cerita. Tengok Kristina terbongkang atas katil dengan mulut bengkak pasca pembedahan.

7) Hari yang sama, aku bertengkar dengan Kristina. Hal kecil, tapi aku rasa sakit sangat. Mungkin sebab fragile waktu tu. Kami tengah tonton movie waktu tu. Aku ambil bantal dan terus baring mengadap laptop.

'It wasn't that bad what I said, ok.'

'Then I guess I'm too fragile, huh?' balasku secara sarkastik. Suara dah mula pecah. Aku tahan air mata.

'Let's just watch the movie. Or you don't want anymore?'

'Can you please put your hand over my head. Please...'

8) Dan dia letakkan tangannya di atas kepala ku. Terus bercucuran air mata jatuh. Bukan setitik-setitik, tapi deras macam pili air paip yang dibuka. Tangisan paling senyap aku pernah buat. Bantal basah habis. Kristina terus mengusap kepala ku berkali-kali tanpa menyedari kondisi aku ketika tu.

9) Aku tak boleh berhenti menangis. Bukan sebab aku sakit hati atau sedih dengan keadaan serabut aku, dan bukan sebab aku bertengkar dengan Kristina.
Tapi sebab aku terlampau bersyukur Allah hantar dia di sisi ku tika tu. Terlampau bersyukur.

10) Patutlah syukur tu sangat penting. Dan patutlah orang-orang yang masuk syurga lupa terus kepayahan mereka di dunia. Baru ku tahu, perasaan bersyukur ni boleh mengatasi semua negativiti dalam hidup.