SESAK

No, you don't...

HOPE

"A terrible day is usually the best flying weather."

- Daxon, on flying a kite -

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What seems wrong could be all the right things for you.

REIF

My kind of new year's resolution.

SEMBUH #7 - PROST

Here's to 2017.

Hoffentlich noch reifer sowohl gedanklich als auch emotion.

Noch weniger Kilos.

und tja... vergiss es...

SEMBUH #6 - MALU

There's a reason why Luqman Al-Hakim said silence is gold.

And there's a reason why the Qur'an mentioned the worst kind of voice is that of a donkey.

So you don't be like one. Or do you?

Thoughts #48 - ATEMZUG

There are things in life not worth describing.

These things are meant to be felt...

That's why some prayers are not meant to be uttered, it will be lost in translation...

they are simply heavy confused mindblowing emotions and hopes you present to Him while prostrating... hoping for answers.

So dear Lord,

please. help.

Thoughts #47 - SPRACHE

Komisch, wie eine Sparche deine Charakter ändern bzw entwickeln könnte.

Und noch komischer, wie wir uns in sie (die Sprache) finden könnten.

Die Wahre von uns selbst.

Obwohl sie nicht unsere Muttersprache ist. Total anders. Nicht einmal in demselben Kontinent sogar.

Wie kann das einfach sein?

Archi #66 - SI SAVVY HITAM

Terima kasih, rakan sahabat yang bantu breakdown di tol Putrajaya semalam. Moga Allah balas jasa kamu-kamu....

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Und für dich, danke sehr. Heute hast du deinen Beweiß hervorgebracht. Ich glaube, ja... ich mag dich sehr...

Thoughts #46 - BERTANYA

Why can't people just ask?

Why do they prefer assumption over truth?

Abah #5 - STRUGGLE

Abah kuat.

Cause he went for fajr and isya' prayer at the mosque everyday.

Only kuat guys do that.

My man and sons will be kuat guys as well.

Abah #4 - PINGGAN

Today you woke up, and you hear clinging sounds in the pantry. You saw Abah washing the dishes, and you don't know wether to cry or to smile.

So you just went straight and kissed him.

May Allah bless you, Abah.

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Dia punya tahap bersyukur, sampai-sampai ja studio terus blanja member Wong Solo...

Abah #3 - habiskan, or rotan

"My parents have taught me, that kids who don't eat all of their food go to a special circle in hell." Simon

- Simon and Martina, Sushi Yukata Party -

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I laughed hard after hearing this. You taught us well, abah :)

Archi #65 - TEGUR

Harini ada budak studio tegur, 'kau ni kata 25, perangai macam 20 ja.'

You don't know how much energy it took me to assimilate, integrate with you young immatured people. Sebab kalau aku act 25, confirm² aku boleh jadi gila with the too obvious age gap.

You don't know how much i miss being 25 tiap kali balik rumah.

Sebab tu aku gigih nak gak balik rumah, tak balik za'ba, even though mata katup baik punya time drive.

Archi #64 - KITA

First time dalam hidup aku kena ampu menteri weih...

I guess, we know where our nation's problem lies.
Not the bark, neither branches, nor fruits.

It's the root.

Archi #63 - CHARISMA

You know you can't take your University Vice Chancellor seriously when he started to give his kosong speech.

But you even for sure know his position is  a political one when he started to dance that Tarian Boria ke laut on stage.

What was that????

Patut la ummi give up dgn pengurusan dia.

Archi #62 - POSITIVE

Not everybody get the opportunity to be  a first year freshie of undergrad student thrice :)

CROSS PATH

"Something that a stranger blurts out could heal your emotional scars or change the direction your life headed. It's not always your loved ones that mend your wounded heart. It could be one of the people whom we cross paths with."

(Doctors. Ep14)
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I second that.
Sometimes we cross path them only in minutes... Tak da 'kebetulan' dalam hidup.

FREE

"Your loved ones can be both the source of your hope and despair."

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How true...

Thoughts #45 - RIO '16

It is always pleasant to the eyes, heart-touching to see players, be it winning or loosing, showing their grattitude to their Lord.

Like how the russian judo player, Khasan, prostrating at the court winning the gold medal. And the Sundirame badminton player, Pito, doing the trinity sign on the forehead and shoulder after loosing to Lee Chong Wei.

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'Kalau main tipu-tipu selamba, tu macam tak respek pemain Sundirame tu. Kalau main betul-betul, kesian pulak dia kena tibai teruk lawan dgn world champion. Kalau ummi jadi Chong Wei, ummi buat apa?'

'Main betul-betul.'

'Biar ye nangish?'

'Tak pe lah. Great experience. It's an honour what dapat main dgn world champ... age 19 some more. Buka tirai siap.'

'Betul. Ye mesti happy sebenarnya.'

You define gratefulness, you define success. How we see things define who we are.

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21-2, 21-3. Tahniah Chong Wei. Emas yok!

DM #23 - BRAIN MANA, BRAIN ?

We are a nation yang kalau nak pi pasar borong beli ikan pun, sanggup dok cangkung tepi pintu dok tunggu mufti keluar fatwa 'Haram ka halal nak beli ikan campoq ketam?'

Malaysia Boleh.
Semua.
Satu ja tak boleh.

Tak boleh fikir.

LOS!

Hope is the little voice you hear whisper "maybe" when it seems the entire world is shouting "no!".

(Anon)

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Schritt für Schritt. Jetzt ist die Phase, für was, was du bist jetzt gelernt und erfahren hast, anzuwenden. Kopf hoch. Gib dein Bestest. An Allah lassen.

Schöne Grüße kommen ja von allen Ecken... wenn du nur zuhörst :)

Thoughts #44 - 1st PODCAST

After those beautifully written 4 episodes of Marking Grid, Anwar and Taka come out with their very first podcast.

Awesome!

It is always nice to see when great-alike minds become partner-in-crime :)

Sempoi dia tinggi tahap level kutub utara nu.

DETERMINATION

Miqdam bin Ma'dikarib said:
I heard the Messenger of Allah (p.b.u.h) saying:

"The human does not fill any container worse than his stomach. It is sufficient for the son of Adam to eat what will support his back. If this is not possible, then a third for food, a third for drink, and a third for his breath."

(Jami' at-Tirmidhi 2380)

Instapicture from: @silent_repenter

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Malu.

But, hey. It's not to late :)
Let's bring that 65 back home you 5ft5 (1.68m) rascal!

Tiba2 #1 - GARDENIA

Aku weih, aku akuuu !! Arghhhh...

RAHMATAN LIL 'ALAMIN

"The idea that some lives matter less is the root of all that is wrong with the world."

Paul Farmer

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We blame the west for having the mentality of westerners' life being more valuable than those of asians, muslims, africans, buddhists and what more.

We say it is not fair, inhumane to have selective outrage.

But sadly, we, O muslims, are no less than those we blame...

We speak up, fight, help our brothers and sisters in religion in Palestine, Syria, Iraq...
and choose to zip up our mouth and actions for our brothers and sister in humanity in Africa, India, etc.

DM #22 - WAS IST DAS?!

That moment when you dah berkurun tak bukak TV...

Kalau orang nak jatuhkan hukuman berat kat aku, tak payah susah-susah pikiaq nak cari rotan ka besi panaih ka... drama melayu cukup.

Thoughts #43 - WABAK MINIMALIS

Being 25, deleting 'friends', throwing off 'once-used-to-be fav stuff, having social media only for scrolling, felt so satisfiying.

When priorities hit you hard.

Archi #61 - NOCHMAL

Where the hell did I got the guts to ditch there, went back home and start it all over again?

Kalau cucu aku tanya, ada ka Tok, orang grad bachelor umur 28 (bukan medik)?

Ada cu. Tok la tu. 2 taon Technical Chemistry Jerman. 3 taon Architecture Jerman tak paham nokharom. 3 taon (inSyaAllah) repeat Architecture UKM.

Awat gu tu Tok?

Coz I can. *flip red hair, inai... pasai cover uban*

Archi #60 - Oh My English

7 years of german dan balik hang kena amik MUET.

Dear bakal husband who-ever-you-are,
banyak benda nak kena ceghita ni. Mohon anda gigih mendengar.

Thoughts #42 - AWARENESS

That moment, when you realise, independant does not only mean financially, it encompases emotion as well. So, here is to emotion-independant. So just not to kill no one.

Welcome to adulthood. Welcome 25.

SEMBUH #1 - Friendly Down Under

Danke Australia for the therapy. Terkezut I nampak omputih senyum dengan sukarelanya. This rarely happens in Europe. Austria and Germany in particular.

Archi #59 - GUGUP

That moment (well, more like EVERY SINGLE moment), when you scroll through archi hand-sketches in social media, be it Instagram, Tumblr, Facebook, Pininterest, etc.) and you feel like slow-slow nak nyorok bawak sofa.

Tu baru sketches, hat dok render construct kat software bagai tu hmmmm...

#ArchiCAD #sketches #Revit #AutoCAD #SketchUp #Photoshop #InDesign #Illustrator #Perspektives #Curves #StructuralEngineering

WWK #18 - LINK

'Hudochka, bagi aku dua link website kau paling percaya. Aku nak belajar sikit drpd level 0 pasal islam.'

'Ok, aku bagi esok malam.'

'Hudochka, jom buat 'sembahyang malam' (qiam) yang kau kata tu. Kau nak bangun pukul berapa esok?'

'Hopefully dah habis kemas rumah la by 12. So aku nak try bangun pukul 2.'

'Ok aku nak buat gak la pukul 2.'

'Nak aku call kejut ke?'

'Takyah. Nanti Stefan terjaga, sian dia.'

'Ok.'

'Ok.'

'Kristina, nanti kat syurga, aku nak jadi jiran kau. Sebab aku nak main dgn puppy, and Golden Retriver!'

'Aku pun, tapi sebab kau kena urut aku.'

Ok fine...

Somethings or some people will never change...
Even kalau dia plan nak masuk syurga. Luls la dia ni.

HEMAH

To think that our Tanah Melayu is so corrupted, typo was not even my 1st thought...

We dont need to be like you.

Thoughts #41 - BESTIMM

" Then when you have taken a decision, put your trust in Allah, certainly, Allah loves those who put their trust in Him."

(Ali Imran 3:159)

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Big decisions require sacrifices,
mostly those of against your interests.

Sacrifice anyway.

Vienna #51 - RAMADHAN YANG TENANG

Dalam kesibukan sorting out dokumen-dokumen peribadi dan fail-fail bank terdengar suara nyanyian seorang budak di tingkat bawah:

"I believe I can flyyyyy, I believe I can touch the skyyyyy..."

dengan penuh harapan ok dia nyanyi. Tersenyum aku mendengarnya.

To which i replied dalam hati:

"Yeah, I used to believe that too, kid."

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Semoga kekalutan dan kekusutan mu dileraikan, wahai budak :)

GLÜCKLICH

"Wenn wir mal gewusst haben, wie schwierig ist es eigentlich für anderr leute unsere Plätze zu kriegen, dann wuusten wir erst, wie glücklich wir eigentlich sind."

(Unbekannt)

Thoughts #40 - BEWEG DICH

Pick yourself up,
Dust yourself off,
Keep moving through the pain,
Enjoy the blessings along the way,

Keep moving forward.

Archi #59 - MORE TRANSLATION

"Der praktische Teil vermittelt die Fähigkeit zur Umsetzung eines städtebaulichen und freiraumplanerischen Konzepts aufgrund eingehender Analyse des räumlichen und sozialen Umfelds, der technischen Erfordernisse des Verkehrs, den Bedingungen der Freiräume und Grünräume und den Vorraussetzungen für die Konzipierung von Gebäuden."


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penulis ni time tulis memang tak bercita-cita nak letak fullstop. Tak nampak langsung niat nawaitunya itu. hmm...


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depa ni, kalau baca qur'an sure takkan fail tang napaih... 

Archi #58 - WAHLSEMINAR

Liebe Alle,

wie heute besprochen entfällt in der nächsten Woche das Seminar und wir verschieben den darauffolgenden Termin vom 14. 06 auf den 16.06 10:00 im Seminarraum.

Dazu möchte ich noch die Gelegenheit nutzen allen zu gratulieren: mein Eindruck ist, dass sich trotz wirklich nicht einfachen Vorgaben von meiner Seite, alle (die noch dabei sind) einen ausgezeichneten Weg gefunden haben. Respekt - das ist nicht so leicht.

Bitte gebt euch noch Mühe beim fertigmachen. Viel Erfolg und meldet euch, wenn ich helfen kann.

Mathias

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You were like dead scared to speak up and give your opinion, while your head was bursting with ideas and arguments. Then your turn came, you appologized for your language barrier. This lecturer said only one word: "perfect." Just with one single nod and sincere smile, he showed support, courage and respect to you.

One of the few TU Wien lecturers whom I can fully give my respect to, and the only seminar conducted that I find pity not being able to complete.

I promise you one fine day Herr Dr. Mathias Mittereger, I will send you my completed version of supposedly Batchelorarbeit - Zukunftsforschung.

That is, to show my gratitude and respect to you.

Vielen Dank, Herr Doktor.
Bis nächstem Mal

Vienna #50 - SEKSAAN DUNIAWI

That moment when you again successfully re-created McD's Prosperity Burger for the umpteenth times and proudly dengan maha bangganya announced on the top of your lungs "who needs McD when you can produce this!" in front of Kak Wan sambil berdiri, mempamerkan burger yang gah itu, only to be hit by demam panas dasyat punya that very same night and lasted for good three days, not to mentioned menangis atas katil tak tahan panas kepala.

Boikot itu wajib. Riak dan takabbur itu tetap haram.

Kan dah kena azab dunia -.-'

Archi #57 - DIE LÄNGE

German does value the length of every given aspects of life (if that ever makes any sense...)

"Am Beispiel von Hauptwerken und bedeutenden Architekturpersönlichkeiten werden die wichtigsten architektonischen und künstlerischen Innovationen und Entwicklungsschritte von der griechischen und römischen Antike über Frühchristentum, Romantik, Gotik, Renaissance und Barock, Klassizismus, Historismus und klassische Moderne bis zu Faschismus und Nationalsozialismus, Nachkriegsmoderne, Postmoderne und Dekonstruktivismus sowie Tendenzen der Gegenwart vermittelt."

Try that in satu nafas, hah!


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Siapa-siapa rasa nak kahwin dengan kau boleh berguru dengan orang jerman untuk lafaz akad satu napaih.
Nurul Huda Al-Ameen binti Mohamed Shahool Hameed.
You're welcome.

Archi #56 - ÜBERSETZUNG

who says german is hard to translate?

"Somit soll den angehenden Architektinnen and Architekten für einfache Anwendungen eine materialgerechte, dem Kräfteverlauf angepasste Formgebung von tragenden Elementen und eine selbstständige Dimensionierung dieser Elemente nach Eurocode für die üblichen Baumaterialien ermöglicht werden."

it's only a sentences three lines long that literally could be seen as a paragraph. Nothing against the ordinary really.

12 more pages to go!

Vienna #49 - KHEIR

"Sometimes you have to lie. But to yourself you must always tell the truth."
(Louis Fitzhugh, Harriet the Spy)

Vienna #48 - EINSAMKEIT

If we are all alone, doesn't that make us together?

Vienna #47 - NOT JANNAH

The life is so complicated, twisted and suffocating that no one came out of it alive.

Circle #25 - MIND SET

Syifa':

Dakwah sepatutnya tidak menjadi beban kepada kita tetapi menjadi privilege kepada kita untuk mendapat redha Allah.

- Muntalaq 2016

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Ya Rabb... permudahkanlah

Archi #55 - HÖLLE

Heute ist kein wohnbau, außer dass heute doch wohnbau ist.

Du kannst dich jetzt umbringen.

Ameen #39 - FACIAL TREATMENT

This would be abah and yam long time ago.

We used to always caught yam and abah sleeping with abah on with lipstick and tudung and yam sleeping besides him.

Abah after coming back home from work, would let yam play with his face, do any 'facial treatment', make up till he falls asleep. Yam, being also kuat tidoq, would then sleep after a tiring facial treatment service.

Those times :)

Thoughts #39 - HOW

Why does cycling through the woods give you such indiscribeable freedom?

Why does the sound of the rain give the calm to your heart?

Why does nights have so many secrets that they leave you wander?

Why does your recitation makes me cry?

Archi #54 - DOUBT

When you are in extreme doubt of everything you're doing, then ask yourself this one extreme question: of why are you even alive today?

Does all the stress worth, kalau mati esok?

Archi #53 - Feld 72

Jaya #7 - GIGIH

Ahad lepas kempunan teramat nak makan bubur chacha. Maka, seperti anak-anak perantauan yang lain, kau capai fon dan google resipi bubur chacha.

'Hoho... senang sangat ni. Tepung pulut, air suam. What could possibly go wrong.' ujar hati kau mencabar takdir.

Well, nothing went wrong and you did well.

EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT IT DIDN'T INCLUDE 5 HOURS OF GENTEL-ING THAT CHACHA IN THE RECIPE

That strong needs of someone to pijak your back to susun balik all your tulang belakang.

Archi #52 - RISAU

Semalam gelak teruk gila dengan kak Wan. Not because you are happy, but you have made terribly good jokes about study life and how it would end up like.

Bak kata Sunyo dalam kartun Doraemon,
'Aaaaa mecemana niiii...'

Vienna #46 - SOKONGAN MORAL

'Huda, makan la ni, roti cicah sambal.'

'Tak nak, nak makan dengan nasi. Kak Wan makan la dulu.'

'Alaa.. tak pe la, makan ni dulu. Ni pembuka mulut.'

'HA HA HA! Orang pembuka selera nyee... bukan pembuka mulut kot. Boooo!'

'Eee jahat... eh Huda pun ada salah jugak ok semalam.'

'Ha apa apa? Eleh...'

'Adaa... ala, akak tak ingat.'

'Eleh, tak ingat sebab tak da...'

'Ada lah! Eeee... hah, dah ingat, semalam masa Huda dok call semua orang, Huda asyik dok ulang satu benda ni. Salah kot bahasa.'

'Apa apa'

'Semangat moral.'

'Ok fine.'

'HA HA HA!'

LU #3 - Allah liebt ihm

Liebe Ummi,

heute ist Pak Ngah gestorben. 27.3.2016 um 2100 MY. Ich hab mit der kak atikah telefoniert. Sie war unterwegs mit ihrem Mann nach Penang. Du mit Abah und Zuhaili. Mak Lang ist auch unterwegs. Als ich den nachricht erfahren hatte, war ich im skype mit yam. Sie hat sofort Ammar telefoniert. Iman war nicht erreichbar, ich glaub sie hatte keine internerverbindung. Außerdem war es schon 2 oder 3 uhr in der früh.

Iman hat mich aber dann später telefoniert. Sie ist bei der Karen mit Nan. Ich hab ihr alles erzählt. Schokiert war sie auf alle fälle.

Möge Allah Pak Ngah beschützen und ihm ins Paradies schicken. Amen.

alles Liebe,
Dein Erste

p/s: kak huda mach ne gruppe in FB. Da sind sie, iman, yam, kak tikah und ich drinn. Ich weiß es nicht obs ein Schritt für was ist, aber... naja... familie halt. Ich brauch keine erwartung was auch immer.

Archi #51 - willkommen

Harini kelopak mata mula bergetar tanpa sebab. Eyelid started to twiched. Rahang kau dah mula sakit balik.

Simptom stress dah start datang balik.

Ameen #38 - YAKIN PADA TUHAN

Walaupun abah dan ummi mampu ja nak beli permainan yang banyak untuk setiap sorang dari kami 3 beradik, tapi mereka tak berbuat yang sedemikian. Kami diajar untuk berkongsi dari kecil lagi.

Satu hari, mungkin sebab dah fed-up, aku merajuk kecewa sebab adik-adik ambil anak patung. Naluri ibu pantas membuatkan Ummi duduk sebelah aku memujuk sambil berkata,

"Tahu tak, kat syurga nanti Uda boleh dapat lagi banyak anak patung."

"Ya ke?"

"Ya, Uda cakap je, terus anak patung ada depan mata."

"Iye?"

"Ya."

"Cakap je terus ada?"

"Tak sempat cakap, baru sebut dalam hati, terus dia dah sampai."

"Iye?"

"Ya."

"Waaaah, nak masuk syurga! Nak masuk syurga!"

"Ha... kenalah sabar, baru boleh masuk syurga. Bagi Yam main anak patung tu. Nanti kat syurga dapat lagi banyak."

"Sebut dalam hati je terus dapat?"

"Iye."

Dan aku terus senyum membayangkan anak-anak patung yang bakal aku dapat di syurga. Tak pa, tak dapat sekarang. Tak lagi gusar, marah dan sedih tak dapat bermain dengan anak patung tadi. Tak marah dengan adik. Malah gembira, adik bermain dengan anak patung tu, sebab kau tahu, kau bakal dapat ratusan anak patung di syurga.

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Funny you could recall all this...
As a self-reminder, maybe?

Vienna #45 - DUIT

Found this in one of my note book, long time ago...

Ya Rabb,
verily the wealth and
provision You granted upon
me are not mine,
All belong to You.
I don't have rights upon
them all, some I do.
The Rest are for Your other
slaves.
So help me, help me to
direct them in the right way.
For I fear I couldn't
answer You on The Last Day.

Amen.

Archi #50 - BILA NAK HABIS?

What would dumping your college feel like?

The majority has the opinion that death is painful, while non was ever brought back to life from death to testify that. *

Sometimes, it's the prediction that got us stuck.

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.

*mati tetap menyakitkan. moga nyawa ditarik secara lembut. amen.

Vienna #44 - bald UMZIEHEN

Ya Rabb,
let me leave this country as soon as possible,
bantu aku habiskan ini sehingga tahun depan,
berkati pengalaman 9 tahun di sini,

Help me prepare for the new world,
Let me move forward with the new air.

Amen.

Archi #49 - WAHLSEMINAR

Sehr geehrte Kolleginnen und Kollegen,

die Zuteilung der Plätze in den Lehrveranstaltungen des SS 2016 ist abgeschlossen.

Wir konnten bei den Wahlseminaren (362 Bewerbungen) 332 Plätze zuteilen, davon 86% mit erster oder zweiter Präferenz; bei den Bachelorentwerfen (391 Bewerbungen) 362 Plätze, davon 80% mit erster oder zweiter Präferenz; bei den 10 ECTS Masterentwerfen (679 Bewerbungen), 658 Plätze, davon 79% mit erster oder zweiter Präferenz; bei den 5 ECTS Masterentwerfen (204 Bewerbungen) 203 Plätze, davon 81% mit erster oder zweiter Präferenz; bei den Master-Modulen (500 Bewerbungen) 494 Plätze, davon 84% mit erster oder zweiter Präferenz. Alle Studierenden, die bereits im Masterstudium inskribiert sind, haben ein Master-Modul bzw. Entwerfen zugewiesen bekommen.

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So dalam 362 applicants untuk Wahlseminar, hanya 332 students ja yang berjaya dapat seat.

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Just after semua org dah bersurai...

"Em... actually saya tak register lagi dalam course ni."

"Ok, tak pa kita registerkan awak sekarang." sambil beliau terus membuka MacBooknya.

"Tapi dalam system TISS kata saya tak memenuhi syarat kemasukan kursus. Tapi saya dah ada STEOP dan berada dalam semester ke-6."

"Ooo... sebab awak tak buat Methodologie der Architekturforschung lagi."

"Oh sebab tu ke?"

"Macam ni, saya register je awak, tapi promise me you will take that other course as well. Nanti saya yang susah."

"Baik, saya ambil course tu juga."

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Just when bulldozing is a part of the plan... bantu aku ya Rabb

CHANGE

Dengar aku, dengar aku selalu bersalah
Selalu terleka dan ku sedari semua
Ampuni ku, ampuni ku yang berdosa
Ku berubah hari ini untuk kamu

(Faizal Tahir - Assalamualaikum)

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If only we were all busy trying to change ourselves for the better...

Kita daie kepada diri kita sendiri.

Vienna #43 - HOPE

Some random thoughts on the way back to Wien from Deutschland. The very reason why I always need my sketch book by my side

Of abah and solving problems

Ada pernah sekali keluarga kami dilanda taufan kotak rubik (baca: rubic cube).

Abah being abah, suka menonjolkan kuasa veto dan kepakarannya dalam mengendalikan masalah (which by the way didn't solve the problems most of the time, but still amazed me by how determined dan sangat percayanya beliau terhadap dirinya sendiri :) )

Banyak strategi abah cuba. Lukis anak panah penanda arah pada setiap kotak kecil, hafal steps, dan lain-lain lagi. Semua tak berhasil. Dan aku macam selalu, penonton setia, dagu dicangkuk ke dua-dua tapak tangan, duduk depan abah menganalisa tingkah-lakunya. Abah loves to be watched (sama la macam Yam)

Sampailah suatu hari, mungkin sebab dah fed-up, abah dengan segala kuasa dan tenaganya memecahkan kotak rubik itu. Kemudian, disusunnya kembali satu persatu mengikut warna mereka.

'Eh, abah dah siap lah! Wah... jadi ke arrow-arrow tu rupanya...' ujar Ummi terkejut.

Abah pandang aku. Dua-dua tersenyum.

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There's always a way out to jalan buntu. Dan tak semua orang perlu tahu cara kita selesaikan masalah tu :)

3 perkara

Terjumpa coretan ni dalam selakan-selakan buku lakaran (baca: sketch book). This was on the 15.11.2015

Ya Rabb,
sungguh aku tak tahu apa
yang terbaik buat ku.

Definisi dakwah itu luas,
seluas lautan-lautan duniawiMu.
Maka Kau tunjukkanlah padaku,
lautan mana yang sesuai buatku.

Definisi berkasih itu juga banyak,
sebanyak pohon-pohon di rimba.
Maka Kau tentukanlah,
pohon mana yang serasi denganku.

Definisi teratak itu kabur,
sekabur masa hadapan yang bakal menanti.
Maka Kau jelaskanlah ia,
agar aku nampak,
teratak terakhir itu di mahligai Mu.

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Jalan itu jauh, maut itu dekat.
Lelah memeta capaian,
tak bermakna lelah memeta harapan.

Archi #48 - Studio GBL 7

Hallo Nurul Huda MOHAMED,

nach Rücksprache an der Abteilung Gebäudelehre ist es uns leider nicht möglich, dich am Entwurf des vorletzten Semesters weiterarbeiten zu lassen. Da du eine negative Beurteilung hattest, musst du den gesamten Kurs wiederholen.

mit freundlichen Grüßen,
Corina Binder

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I guess I do have to import the hebrew alphabets soon for further plans... Plan A sampai Z habis dah. Huruf jawi dah separuh jalan.

This country is yours - A.R. Rahman

This country of yours is your motherland
And is calling out to you
This is a bond which can never break.

How can you forget the scent of your earth
You can go anywhere but you'll always come back
In new paths, in every sigh
To your lost way
Someone will say

Life is telling you
You have achieved everything now what's left
Looks like happiness has been showered on you

But you're far from you home
Now come back oh crazy one
Where at least someone will call you their own
And will call out to you
That very same country

Ameen #37 - Ummi yang klasik

Nyayian Serambi Ramli Sarip adalah merupakan lagu fevrey ummi. Ummi selalu nyanyi lagu tu dalam kereta drive kami balik sekolah, dan ketika memasak di dapur, dan ketika menonton TV, dan ketika menyidai kain, dan ketika mengemas rumah, dan lain-lain aktiviti.

Tapi ummi is ummi, tak ingat lirik. Dok ulang-ulang chorus 4 ayat tu sampai bila-bila.

Sampai stuck dalam kepala anak sulung dia. Bila rindu, anak dia cari lagu tu dalam YouTube dan putar berpuluh kali. Kesian kak wan kena dengar selalu.

Baru perasan, indah sungguh gubahan lagu ni.

Nyanyian Serambi - Ramli Sarip

Tuai pagi balik petang
adakala sampai malam
cari rezki bawa pulang
buat orang yang tersayang
bersabarlah

Wajahmu di mana-mana
senyum kasih mesra kasih
cinta murni kan bersemi
bersama ketulusan budi
bersemi

Lama ku cari rahsia kasih
rindu kasih untuk berkasih
senang-senang duduk diserambi
senandung lagu puisi
zikir zaman nyanyian zaman

Andai kasturi hilang harum
mawar tak berkuntum
cinta tak bersambung

Biar emas setinggi gunung
kan ku peluk rimbun ampun
rahmat yang Maha Agung.

Archi #47 - Studio GBL 6

Sehr geehrte Frau Corina Binder,
bitte entschulgiden Sie mir wegen der mehreren zugeschickten Emails. Es wurde automatisch mehrmals an Ihnen geschickt. Irgendwas stimmt nicht bei meiner TU Webmail. Ich schickte Ihnen jetzt wieder die 3 Dokumente. Ich hoffe, dass es dies mal funktioniert wird.

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Please jangan judge aku dengan masalah system ni, wahai Betreuer B. Ya Rabb, kau bukalah pintu hati dia dan mereka seluas-luasnya untuk luluskan aku. Ameen.

Archi #46 - Studio GBL 5

jasmin kata baca bismillah, baca bismillahi tawakkaltu alallah, baru tekan send...

aku buat sebijik tu, jiwa raga mulut otak semua baca tu sama, send, and then...  'Your time for the 30 minutes TU Webmail has expired.'

ok, takpa, kita cuba lagi.

upload balik all the heavy data, ok, dah. Bimillahi tawakkaltu alallah, la hawla wa la quawwata illa billahi aliyyil azim' . send, and then... email stuck, sent 6 times automatically. hah?? ada satu ja butang send, macam mana sampai 6 kali send ni?

wei, apa ni wei... apa... kah... ini...

dalam 6 email yang di auto-send tu satu ja file attached. memang tak la Betreuer tu nak cek satu-satu.

jom ramai-ramai pakat tengok siling rumah, cari jawapan dan inspirasi kehidupan. Eh, lupa, aku loner dalam rumah ni. pakat tengok sorang.

Archi #45 - Studio GBL 4

Sehr geehrte Frau Corina Binder,

wie am Mittwoch besprochen wurde, habe ich mit Ihnen bezüglich das Studio GBL SS2015 besprochen, da ich wegen meiner Lage eine dringende zweite Meinung bräuchte, um mein Studio positiv bewertet werden zu können.

Ich bin auch dazu bereit mein Studio nach Ansprache zu verbessern, um es positiv bewerten zu können, da ich leider die Möglichkeit nicht habe es im SS2016 zu wiederholen. Aufgrund meiner zeitlichen und finanziellen Einschränkungen, in dessen ich das Stipendium von der Regierung Malaysias bekomme, da ich aus Malaysia komme, sollte ich das Bachelor Studium Architektur in drei Jahren abschließen.

Wie ich mitbekommen habe, wegen den zahlreichen Vorlesungen, Übungen und Wahlfächer bezüglich den Studios, erschwert es uns viele Sachen in einem Semester abschließen zu können. Den Druck den ich leider habe, ermöglicht es mir nicht das Studio nochmal zu wiederholen, deswegen Bitte ich Sie mir zu helfen und mir eine Chance zu ermöglichen, das Studio abschließen zu können.

Im Anhang dieser Email sind 3 Dokumente: 

1 zip file mit 3 pdf Dateien - Endpräsentation, Pläne (A3-format), Readings; 

1 zip file mit 4 pdf Dateien - Beamerpräsentation Aufgabe 1-4; 

1 jpg Datei Stipendium_Bestätigung (Ich habe das erste Jahr meines Studiums, ein Stipendium bekommen, dennoch werden die weiteren zwei Jahre des Studiums jeweils separat angerechnet.)

Ich wäre Ihnen sehr verbunden, wenn Sie mir mein Anliegen akzeptieren würden.

Vielen Dank für Ihr Verständnis!

Mit freundlichen Grüßen,

Nurul Huda MOHAMED

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Archi #44 - Studio GBL 3

to do list till tomorrow

1. seperate dan merge kan file-file yang berkenaan

2. lepas dah separate dan merge, cari jalan macam mana nak compress semua file yang berdata saiz besar. try zip file dan lain-lain.

3. Gmail tak boleh tampung zip file besar. try TU Webmail.

4. karang email dalam bahasa jerman. tak reti, so karang english dulu.. 

5. oh perkataan formal english pun banyak dah lupa rupanya. ok, now translate everything in german back.

6. minta jasmin check kan grammar dan struktur ayat

7. email jasmin dan sümeyye, depa dapat tak file dan boleh buka tak file from TU Webmail. boleh!

8. email translated, checked, and file uploaded.

Archi #43 - Studio GBL 2

1. Otak kau dah tak boleh nak berfungsi, jantung kau berdegup kencang gila. Nasib baik kau tak buat Termin (appointment) dengan Betreuer K, kau redah ja. So masih boleh change route.

2. Kaki kau just terus ke Betreuer B. Otak masih tak berfungsi. Tangan kau automatik hulur salam ke Betreuer B.

3. 'Hai, ich komme eigentlich wegen einer zweiten Meinung bezüglich Studio Gebäudelehre.'
'Ja, was meinst du damit?'
'Ermm... ich möchte es verbessern damit es ppppp...pooositive bbbewertet sein emmm zu können?'
'Wie?'
'Emm..emmm... ich meine...'

Kau memang tak sedia dan tak sangka akan jumpa balik dengan Betreuer B. Otak dah tak berfungsi, german dah tunggang-langgang. Betreuer K yang kau harap boleh tolong kau, tak tau pun kau akan dan nak jumpa dia actually.

4. 'Tak, yang awak minta tu tak possible. Sebab markah ditentukan bukan dari saya ja, tapi dari board. So, ulang ja la balik studio.'
'Tapi tak boleh. Sebab saya ada banyak lagi studio yang lain.'
'So buat ja la parrallel.'
'Tak boleh, banyak lagi subjek sana nak kena cover, and scholarship saya sampai Semptember ni ja. Dan saya rasa Studio saya hrtu boleh lulus. Even Zwischenpräsentation saya lulus.'

Kau keluarkan surat financial statement MARA. Argumen kau dan Betreuer B makin rancak, tapi kau tewas german, kau cakap english ja. Otak dah tak boleh proses jerman dalam kekalutan ni.

5. 'Awak tulis email kat saya. Tulis balik semua argument awak di email. Saya bincang dengan institut nanti. Saya tak boleh nak janjikan apa-apa.'
'Terima kasih.'

Archi #42 - Studio GBL 1

1. Kau takut gila nak jumpa Betreuer K tu sebab kau tak kenal dia. Tapi kau perlukan 2nd opinion untuk Studio Gebäudelehre yang kau fail last summer sem.

2. Kau nekad untuk print semua poster and file data, present dekat Betreuer K.

3. 'Cik Sekretari, muka Betreuer ke tu macam mana rupa dia actually? Sorry saya tak pernah jumpa dia.'
'Oh tak pa... just turun tangga tu, meja paling hujung tu dia.'

4. Kau dekat atas tangga tersentak sebab kau rasa kau nampak Betreuer B (betreuer kau yang failkan kau sem lepas)  duduk bertentangan dengan Betreuer K. Dekat seminit kau fikir atas tangga tu, nak proceed ke tak ni...

5. Kaki kau just melangkah ke hadapan. Oh hair cut ja sama... bukan Betreuer B.

6. Sesampai ja dekat sisi meja Betreuer K, kollege di meja sebelah dia pandang aku. Ok, itu Betreuer B.

Itu Betreuer B

Itu Betreuer B

Itu Betreuer B

Itu Betreuer B

Itu Betreuer B

why... why... why... why...

Vienna #42 - NO JUDGING

For some people, it takes courage to be a college drop-out.

Archi #41 - TWL 0 GESCHAFFT

Du hast sie im 1. Semester nicht geschafft. Jetzt aber doch :) also noch a bissi mühe bitte

Das wird schon gehen, inSyaAllah.

Morgen los mit dem Betreuer für Studio Gebäudelehre. Bismillah...

Archi #40 - 1,5.Versuch

Aku
terkebil
malu
kaku

minta peluang rayuan lulus
kedua kali itu.

Aku
penat
pusing
runsing

fikir persembah bahasa asing
kedua kali itu.

Aku
gentar
takut
kecut

tak mahu gagal
kedua kali itu.

Aku capek dengan tidur yang tak lena, mimpi yang buruk, kerisauan yang membunuh.

Masalah manusia #30 - ILUSI SI PEMALAS

Masalah kita ialah

terlampau bangga
dengan susur galur
terlampau alpa
dengan ilmu teratur.

Masalah kita ialah

gua sudah mengembara 30 negeri
gua sudah mengenali dunia kurang 1 dekat
gua sudah saksikan kekejaman di depan mata sendiri
gua sudah menganalisa isu semasa ini
gua sudah meramal ia jauh 5-6 tahun terdahulu
gua sudah tahu apa kan terjadi selepas ni
gua...
gua...
gua...

baiklah, kau tahu semua
lantas apa tindakan mu?
sekadar pendekar di applikasi pencicip?
perasan dirimu senantiasa diintip?
sedangkan mulutmu itu sudah lama diketip.

Masalah kita ialah

Rasa sudah cukup pabila bersungguh cakna isu ummat.

kau tahu?
Jika yang lain punya uang sebanyakmu,
mereka juga boleh jadi seperti kamu.
Kehebatanmu bukan pada sumbangan tenaga,
hanya pada uang saku pemberian rakyat duka nestapa.

'Hey, tak mahukah kau berbakti
dengan lebih mendalam nanti?'
Timbalah pengalaman, usia mu itu masih muda, usah dibazirkan.'

kau melatah
pabila diberi amanah
anugerah Tuhan terserlah

Ah!
Pengalamanku sudah jauh mematangkan aku
Tanya saja naskah-naskah itu
Semua itu guru sifu ku!
Tanya saja tiket-tiket yang tersusun itu
Itu bukti sumbangan baktiku
Kau siapa tak kenal aku?!
Apa saja yang kau tahu!
Ayo, tunjukkan ilmumu
Kitab mana, naskah mana, laman sesawang mana kau mampu
Kita bandingkan siapa yang lebih tahu!

Masalah kita ialah

terlampau bangga dengan pencapaian

Ketahuilah,
kau bukan berseorangan.
Ramai lagi diluar sana spesismu.
Lain rupa, lain bangsa, lain budaya.
Tapi fikiran mereka saling tak tumpah bak kamu.
Menumpang mimpi indah
Hasil titik peluh umat terdahulu.
Seakan kau turut melawan musuh datang berpusu-pusu
Seakan kau turut serta mengangkat pedang
Sedangkan telingamu disumbat lagu metalika korea jepang.

Ketahuilah,
kau tak lain hanyalah seorang naratif.
kau hanya sebahagian daripada sejarah.
kau hanya
penonton,
pencerita,
penganalisa,
peramal.
Tapi kau bukan,
jauh sekali bukan
seperti mereka yang kau kagumi.
rakan-rakan mu yang cuba kau pandang rendah,
ya, mereka itulah yang sedang mengorak langkah
berkhidmat rela tenaga dikerah.

Oh ya,
Kau hebat dalam meramal bukan?
Nah, sekarang ramalkan lah,
bahawasanya
guru sifumu itu
bakal mengajarmu
sejarah, usaha, keringat, darah
yang sedang dicipta
oleh sahabat taulan seusia mu.
Sambil kau di atas kerusi malas
masih lagi bangga dengan pengetahuan tak berbalas.

Ameen #36 - ASKARI 2

Dulu masa kecil-kecil, ummi selalu cerita perihal arwah tokwan sebagai seorang askar.

'Ummi, tokwan jadi askar dia kena buat apa?'

'Masuk hutan... tokwan tukang masak dulu. Dia jugak tere urut orang. Askar-askar dulu kalau salah urat, tulang dislocated ke apa ke, dia cari tokwan dulu baru pi doktor.'

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Hampir lupa, belah abah pun ada...

'Acik mesti happy awak masuk askar, Ju.'

'Haah.'

'Awak jadi macam arwah Cica.'

'Kak Huda, haritu Iju pakai baju askar, testing skali boot arwah ayah. Mak nampak dia terus nangis. Sebab dia teringat dekat arwah.

Monkeys #1 - Parenting 101

Anak-anak bukan alat untuk ditunggang bagi mencapai impianmu.

Vienna #41 - JIRAN SEBELAH

That moment when you are already inside the kepompong selimut, wrapped baik punya, about to go to sleep, just finished pasang niat puasa ganti for tomorrow, and right away smelled a very strong pungent scent of hookah from the window next door.

Esok kalau aku bangun migrain, hang ganti puasa aku

Childhood & Parenting

"I think it's the books that you read when you're young that live with you forever."

(J.K.Rowling)

Layar #14 - Of Rewan Ishak and Nik Amir Mustafa

Boleh patah harap jugak la kalau tengok kualiti drama dan filem tempatan. It kind of shows us the real demands of the majority of Malays, what kind of mentality they have, what their main concerns in life are...

No quality and merapu sana-sini.

Until I met Rewan Ishak's and Nik Amir Mustafa's films, be it short or full films. The kind of directors needed by the rakyat. Terima kasih kerana memberi nafas baru dalam industri ini.

To name a few: KIL, Terbaik Dari Langit, Pasport Ekspres, Light Bulb and many more.

Archi #39 - JALAN ASING

Road not taken.

Tak guna banding 'harga' kalau 'material' tak sama.

Jalan kita lain-lain.

Ameen #35 - ABAH 3

Abah ni lawak dia terlampau lame tahap sampai terpaksa gelak guling-guling terbahak-bahak sebab teruk sangat lame dia.

Sayang abah :)

Vienna #40 - TERAPI

I guess, one of the biggest nikmat Allah grant me living here is that I learn how to cry.

WKK #17 - JUJUR

'Kristina, apa pendapat kau kalau aku ambil journalism?'

'Aku rasa kau tak kan hidup lama.'

'Asal? Aku tak reti menulis ke?'

'Aku rasa kau akan tulis cerita yang benar. Kau takkan bohong. So, kau akan mati dibunuh.'

Hamboi...

Ameen #34 - JIWA LAIN

Behind every scene of every budak kampung yang terjun mandi sungai is a jealous budak bandar who secretly wanna be like them too.

This kind of budak bandar never enjoys video games, always looked out the window wondering if he/she could roam around freely, and are always super excited to see lembu and kambing.

Yes, we are.

Ameen #33 - JIWA KAMPUNG

Being raised by a kampung girl, I never think that we the 3 siblings enjoy kota life that much. At least, I know I don't.

When we were kids, Ummi would tell us stories of her at the bendang, catching those fish with her short pants. She would help tokwan chop the woods to build a table for her to study.

Where she would have to bath with the icy air perigi. Where they all would gather watching TV at her neighbour's house because apparently, only that house had TV in the whole kampung.

Any many more stories that excite me like crazy, but at the same time made me feel so jealous.

To which I whisper to myself, I pray to be a kampung girl and marry a kampung boy, so that my children would be budak kampung.

*

I guess deep inside, I still kinda utter that prayer till today.

Ameen #32 - KHEMAH

*       

HEAVY

"When God puts you in a situation where no one can help, He really means bussiness - one on one."

(Matluthfi90)

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*getap bibir*

Ameen #31 - YAM N DRIVE 5

... and even bila dah sampai rumah, kalau tiba-tiba lagu yang sama diputarkan kembali oleh DJ radio, we would again pretend to be singers sampai lagu habis, baru masuk rumah.

Sayang Yam :)

Ameen #30 - YAM N DRIVE 4

Whenever Yam and me would get stuck in the traffic jam in KL (sebab salah timing... we hate KL, kami Selangorrr!), we would patiently wait for the radio to play our favourite song.

'Yam yam, lagu niii!'

We would then joget bagai nak gila dalam kereta selagi mana seat kereta mengizinkan, lantak la kereta sebelah nak kata apa.

We are perempuan, we have too many hormones to handle.

Ameen #29 - YAM N DRIVE 3

Ada suatu hari, kau dan Yam bergaduh teruk, anak sulung dengan anak bongsu ni usually panas orang kata.

Tapi disebabkan kena pi kenduri kahwin Nad (housemate Iman) untuk mewakili Iman, maka kami put aside our ego, dan saling bermasam muka sahaja di dalam kereta menuju ke Shah Alam from Kajang (2hours driving)

Turns out, dekat Petronas Kajang baru tahu Yam takda data dalam phone, so no GPS. So, instead of gaduh salahkan masing-masing, we came out with the idea of konon-konon berada dalam rancangan TV Amazing Race.

Amazingly, we did arrived to the kenduri tho. We made a good team.

Lupa dah pagi tadi gaduh.

Ameen #28 - YAM N DRIVE 2

We have this sort of unwritten agreement.
KL dan Selangor Utara (pasai kena lalu KL jugak), kau drive
Selangor Selatan, Yam drive.

Sebab dia agak mudah, Yam malas nak handle jem KL.

Driving manual in KeyEl is azab to the kaki.

Ameen #27 - YAM N DRIVE 1

Tiap kali cuti musim panas, tiap kali tu jugaklah Perang Saudara se-Kajang akan bermula. Puak Huda dan puak Yam.

Gaduh siapa dapat drive kereta.

Manual okeh. *flip hair*

WAHL

"Nicht die Glücklichen sind dankbar. Es sind die Dankbaren, die glücklich sind."

(Francis Bacon)

"Bukan yang bergembira itu yang sedang bersyukur. Yang bersyukur itu yang sedang bergembira."

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Bermain dengan pilihan atau bahasa atau kefahaman?

Archi #38 - RAYUAN STUDIO

Here's how you prepare to meet Betreuer untuk rayuan kelulusan projek studio kau,

kau tulis blog panjang-panjang.

Pfft.

ZON #1 - BEING JUDGED

Remember those time when you were 12 and weighted 61kg? Yes, you were a bola.

Remember that you thought all students had to sign up for the sports club only to realise later that it wasn't compulsory?

Remember that none of your 6th grade friends entered the basketball club so you're left alone beratur sorang-sorang in your spot?

Remember your 1st day in that basketball training, your kaki terseliuh baik punya sebab badan hipotatamus kau tu hempap kaki sendiri?

Remember how you try to express your pain in japanese, because apparently none of your teachers understand any other languages except for nihongo?

Remember that you went back home crying because you couldn't stand those japanese basketball team players staring at you because of your tudung and broken japanese?

Remember you asked ummi's permission to quit basketball?

Remember that later you decided to still stay with the basketball team despite feeling neglected and rejected?

Remember that you always tak senang duduk tak tau nak solat kat mana during basketball tornament?

Hambui banyaknya masalah budak 12 tahun ni...

*

But hey,

Because of all that,

you've lost 10kg. You came back to Malaysia with 49kg.

you knew that Iman was the best support system and still am, not only in basketball but in all.

your japanese at that time improve tremendously (masa tu ja la... siap boleh gaduh dengan budak korea)

and until now, basketball is your dear :)

Ameen #26 - BROTH SAYUR

Bahaya bila kita attempt masak masakan ummi ni adalah apabila hang masuk dapoq terus terhidu bau rumah T_T

Tak tau nak nangih pasai mana dulu,  pasai masak broth jadi sebijik macam ummi ka atau pasai rindu rumah gila-gila.

Thoughts #38 - BERSIN

Kenapa dalam setiap peradaban dan tamadun, kalau orang bersin ja ia mesti akan disusuli dengan ucapan kesejahteraan atau doa?

Aachchoooo!

"Yarhamkallah!"
"Bless you!"
"Gesundheit!"

Why time bersin eh?

Thoughts #37 - GIVE N TAKE

There's a different between loving animals because they make you happy and because you want to make them happy.

As for the 2nd one, that's why orang tak faham kalau kucing kurap pun kami sayang :)

Our interests might be the same, but our intentions might differ.

Sebab tu tak serasi.

Archi #36 - BOOTCAMP

Esok kalau anak minta nak study architecture, aku suruh dia try tak tidur 5hari straight sambil tahan dimaki 24/7.

Kadang aku rasa archi ni dengan askar macam takda beza ja. Dua-dua lenguh badan, dua-dua tahan maki.

Thoughts #36 - HOME

If there is ever such thing as honeymoon, then your choice would not be for Europe.

You'd go for Lombok, Sabah, Sarawak (the Borneo in general), or the east coast a.k.a pantai timur.

:)

Thoughts #35 - PLANUNG

They say, don't worry. If plan A doesn't work, you still have 25 letters to go.

Ni bukan kata nak masuk letter ke-25, ni dah masuk hurop jawi dah pun. Silap haribulan kena import huruf hebrew. Doh guane?

Vienna #39 - GADUH

That moment when you're not sure wether you memang dah hati kering-kontang takda perasaan, or you know where to invest your feeling and energy into.

.

Note to self:
1) gaduh dalam german ni sangat lah tak best. Nak ekspres diri susah, nak terangkan situasi susah (apatah lagi nak fix situasi) Nasib tak lempang ja tadi.

2) sesungguhnya gaduh dengan perempuan ni sangat pointless. Kadang aku faham ja kalau laki give up, terus tangan perempuan ni.

Vienna #38 - FIX YOU

Pagi ni internet rumah tak berfungsi. Puas kau godek modem tu tak dapat-dapat punca problem. Last-last kau call UPC-Anbieter (internet provider).

'Cik on off balik, maybe suis modem rosak.'
'Cik test kat plug lain, maybe plug rosak.'
'Cik tengok lampu mana menyala, maybe compartment rosak'
'Cik nak kami hantar modem baru? macam modem tu sendiri yang rosak.'
'Cik nak pick up sendiri ye ?' (sebab satgi hampa kata post pulak rosak...)

esok settle la tu lepas pi HQ... sambil memetik suis lampu tandas. Eh? Lampu mati juga? Eh... jap... ke... Panjat kerusi. Usha kotak letrik. Ok, fius jatuh. Blackout rupanya. Patut modem tak jalan. Ni bak datang 10 modem baru pun tak jadi gini haha... kau berjenaka dalam hati.

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Kadang 'masalah-masalah' kecil sekeliling kita tu bukan masalah, tapi simptom kepada punca masalah sebenar. Dan kadang tu, solusinya kita discover di tempat yang tak diduga.

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Kadang tu kau cuba nak betulkan keadaan sedangkan kau lah punca masalah.

Ameen #25 - INQUIRI

Dulu-dulu zaman tadika selalu kena tunggu ummi habis kerja. Jadi, masa menunggu dihabiskan dengan aktiviti bernas.

You used to petik cili api merah dari pohon renek tu and rub it on your lips. Konon nak lipstick. Nak merahkan bibir semerah cili padi. Ya Allah... burn wei bibir... Burn...!

You used to tenung at those sampah kertas dan habuk di pejabat ummi that was compiled on the floor and wonder how it smells. Maka kau mendekati sampah tersebut dan menghidunya  (baca: menyedut) habuk tersebut dari jarak 1cm. Hidung kau bertukar menjadi vaccuum. Rasa nak nangis. Burn wei hidung... Burn!

Dalam burn burn tu pun, kau tak berani bagitau ummi, takut kena marah. Bila dah reda azab pedih tu, baru slow-slow bagitau ummi.

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Masa tadika dulu, semangat inquiri itu sangat tinggi dan menebal di dalam diri. Sampai ke suatu tahap, kau sanggup harung apa sahaja demi menjawab persoalan-persoalan yang terdetik di hati, yang tak terjawab oleh akal fikiran. Bila pedih, kau tak terus mengeluh, kau sanggup tahan sebab tahu salah sendiri. Tak mau kena marah.

Mana ntah pergi mentaliti suci tu... terlupa? atau dah dicemari?

CERITA KAMU

"7 billion people experienced this day in a different way."

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Tujuh billion cerita... pada hari yang sama... wow...

Thoughts #34 - ASKARI

How about marrying a soldier?

DM #20 - TINGGI

Dalam passport tinggi letak 170cm... realitinya 167cm...

yea i'm desperate like that...

WISH #10 - ROLE

to have a long chat with Suhaib Webb. I have so many things to ask, so many things to say that I don't even know where to start.

WISH #9 - PENYU

to visit and to say sorry to those penyu (if by any chance be able to meet the leatherback turtles) of our greed that leads to the extinction of your species

Maafkan kami sang penyu, rakan tuan di seberang laut sana mengharung sampah sisa kami. Straw menyekat saluran nafas rakan tuan. Ampunkan kami

ZON 0 - KICK START

May this Tag serve as a reminder of everything He'd saved you from since Day 1 of getting out of your comfort zone.

Like what Tariq Ramadan pointed out in one of his speech:

"Iqra'. I cannot read. Iqra' bismirabbik allazi khalaq. Read. In the name of your Lord, read. Meaning, even if you cannot read, but with Me, you are able to read."

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Sometimes, what holds you back from getting out of your comfort zone is not just because you are comfortable enough with your situation, but the fear you have thinking everything would seem impossible on the other side of the border of that zone.

So, there goes your faith and trust in Him.

Thoughts #33 - BUAI

Are you even living the reality?

BLIND FOLLOWERS

"Communist until you get rich; feminist until you get married; atheist until the airplane starts falling."

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The worst is NOT the fact that you have to understands their so-called 'heroic' ideologies here (till you want to muntah).
The worst is to fly back home and witness the same ideologies being celebrated and implemented by your own people.

ARCHIVE

"Frauen vergessen nicht, sie archivieren."
(Unbekannt)

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Mehr kann ich dazu nichts sagen...

Ameen 24 - BESAR KEPALA

Pernah suatu hari, darjah 3 rasanya. Minta izin ummi nak mandi kolam dekat tingkat bawah. Ummi tak izinkan.

Berbekalkan keazaman dijiwa, semangat memberontak membuak, dengan muka bengis memasuki bilik, kau tukar baju mandi rembat pelampung, capai kunci rumah, kau keluar rumah senyap-senyap.

Rasa macam dah besar sangat. Gua boleh mandi sendiri la...

Balik rumah tengok ummi dah kunci pintu pagar. Menangis kau basah-kuyup situ sorang-sorang minta nak masuk rumah. Padan muka...

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Kadang confident kita itu tak menjamin ketepatan keputusan kita.

Ameen #23 - ABAH 2

Masa kecil dulu rasa kena denda kat sekolah tu macam main-main ja, sebab kena denda kat rumah tu lagi dasyat.

Kalau abah masuk bilik, dia sebut 'Ya... Allah...' semua menggelabah. Kelam-kabut cari ampaian nak menyorok belakang baju.

Malangnya, ummi tak basuh baju hari tu.

Nice.

Ameen #22 - ABAH 1

How to put this?

Benci tahap dewa kalau enjin kereta tak boleh start, kerana ia membantuti segala plan kau untuk cuti musim panas itu.

Gumbira tak terkata kalau enjin tak boleh start, kerana ia bermaksud sesi abah bersama anak sulungnya repair kereta bermula :)

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Repair la sangat... jump start ja pun...

But those are the moments that you'd cherrished with abah.

like the one with mencangkul tanah tanam ubi, bakar sampah depan rumah, tukar semua lampu rumah, set alarm rumah, fix pam air rumah, ...

Having 3 daughters, he sometimes (most of the times) needs us to be his sons.

WWK #16 - ÄNDERN

It was 2011, about 5 years ago...

Kristina: If we were to meet 6 years ago, we would not have been friends.

Me: Why?

'I was so different, the opposite of what I am today.'

'I guess, the same goes to me.'

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People change. And when they do, they start meeting the right one. One by one.

So, change. So we can meet each other.

BERÜHRT #1 - BRILLIANT IN SOUND

ASHLEY DARREN - Goodnight

Is it just you thinking too deep or that music really caught up your ear giving direct passage to the heart and the brain signaling the eyes to shed some jewels?

Review:
Started off by pujuk-ing you to look back at the past, seeing how much you've been through.
"Hey, tengok yang tu, kau ingat dulu kau tak boleh pass yang tu kan? See now." "Rasa tak boleh cope dan nak balik kan? See now." "Kau pernah doa yang tu kan? Tapi kau tak ingat. See now."
In the end, it says, cheerish and seize the present. You are here. Jauh dah jalan, setengah jalan dah. Jalan la lagi. Kheir.

DM #19 - MALAYSIA SOLD

3 kapal terbang 'tanpa' tuan.
TPPA diluluskan.
Tabung Haji tiada duit.
Najib dan 2.6b Saudi.
Bauksit.

and many more...

Syabas anda di atas sana, berjaya laksanakan Action Plan masing-masing sebelum Februari 2016.

Malaysia sold.

Jaya #6 - GIRLS' WAKE UP CALL

Things that I used to get tangled for 1 year, last year I managed to get tangle for 1 month only.

And now, a day

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Next time, just 1 minute please. And that is for a real purpose by then. InSyaAllah.

WISH #7 - HERITAGE

to greet all the cats in Istanbul and ask them how was the winter inside the mosque?

Thoughts #32 - FAKERS GONNA FAKE

Not everyone can stand originality, much more to even afford it.

Be original anyways :)

Masalah manusia #29 - PULIH

"A society should be judged not by how it treats its outstanding citizens, but by how it treats its criminals."

(Fyodor Dostoevsky)

Instead of just Crime and Punishment

Crime, Evaluation and Treatment

Tedx- Daniel Amen - The most important lesson from 83,000 brain scans

Masalah manusia #28 - TERBALIK

got this reminder earlier today... no, I didn't know...

While we here are battling to loose weight, half the population of the earth are battling not to gain, but enough to survive.

I guess that 68 are for them too...

GLOBALISATION OF UMMAH PEMALAS

"[...] It must also be remembered that it is not a question of understanding the world better in order to adapt to it, but, at much deeper level, through this contact with the changing realities of the world (scientific, social, political and economic), it is a question of rereading the scriptual sources themselves with a new eye."

Western Muslims and the Future of Islam
(Tariq Ramadan)
Maslaha, Ijtihad, and Fatwa - page 37

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Kerana orang malas berfikir, malas mengkaji, malas mencari, malas menganalisa... so they think, why not just follow the classical interpretation and adapt to the current surroundings...

BLIND FAITH

"[...] In fact, as we have seen, even if forms of religious practice do not change with the changes in time and space, some religious commands related to the affairs of the world naturally take on the color of the culture of various countries: the principles remain the same, but the ways of being faithful to them are diverse. So the concern should not be to dress as the Prophet dressed but to dress according to the principles (of decency, cleanliness, simplicity, aesthetics, and modesty) that underlay his choice of clothes."

Western Muslims and the Future of Islam
(Tariq Ramadan)
Comprehensiveness, the Absolute, and the Evolition, page 36

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Berapa ramai arab yang bernikab litup hitam atas bawah tapi solekan mata mampu menggugat sekalipun dari pandangan golongan hawa, pabila diangkat tangan, jatuh lengan baju menyinsing, menampakkan kulit hingga ke siku.

Berapa ramai melayu yang mengenakan jubah dan tudung, serupa tidak memakai apa.

When the practices of faith just a mere blind practice, not understanding the principe behind it. Apa beza kita dan nasrani kalau begitu? Their failure was the blind faith. Us?

Archi #35 - HOPE HOPE HOPE

Exam Bauphysik (building physics) susah gila rasa macam nak koyak kertas soalan.

That moment, when you go through all your calculations and one word came whispering to your ear 'matilah... 3bulan wei...'

MACH

"The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing."
(Walt Disney)

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Also los jetzt... mach, was du kannst!

Archi #34 - BAUPHYSIK

Happiness is to finally understand and get the answer right.

Jom buat kenduri kesyukuran...

#studywithimannyam #sistersforlife #wegotsamemove

Circle #24 - SABAR

Kak May:

Sabar itu ada tiga macam,

1. Sabar dengan ketaatan
2. Sabar dengan kemaksiatan
3. Sabar dengan musibah

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Sempitnya skop sabar aku selama ni...

Circle #23 - SAMPAI BILA

Kak May:

Kadang kita akan sampai satu tahap di mana kita bertanya
sampai bila kita dengan kerja ni?
banyaknya kerja?
kenapa the brothers and sisters begini begini?

Pakcik Nicolas kata,
kerja kita sampai mati,
ragam-ragam kerja memang bergitu,
sedang diri kita sendiri bermacam ragam,
inikan pula ragam orang-orang lain.

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teruskan bekerja, Huda.

Vienna #37 - HELP

Thoughts #31 - WHERE TO?

Some people are born in Europe, but are made for Asia.
Some people are born in Asia, but are made for Europe.
Some people are born in Africa, but are made for America.
Some people are born in Australia, but are made for Africa.
Some people are born in Antartica, and are made for Antartica.
Some people are born in Asia, and are made for Asia.

Some people are born on the Earth, but are made for the Heaven.

some are made for the Hell...

The things is, you never really know your place until you reach that certain point. Till then, be a wanderer and a finder.

Cita setinggi langit, jangan lupa kaki di bumi.

DURCHBEIßEN

"That's the problem with being the strong one, no one offers you a hand."

-m.t.

Jaya #5 - TURNING POINTS

2015 has been a year full of turning points.

Complexcity to simplicity.
Priorities.
Re-defining the path of God.
Clothes and wardrobe.
Letting go.
Steadfast and perserverance.

and many more...

Here is to a 2016 resolution:

'to let us get that 68 back home'

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Bismillah