HEADS UP

The worst thing about depression is that you feel like you deserve nothing good of the world.

You don't deserve family and friends. You want to keep you by yourself because you feel that you suck.

And you don't made up that feeling. You believe by it.

And it is right then, when you are attacked by this depression where your family and real friends are the most important to you. They will remind you of how strong you are, of how great your personality and goals are. Of how driven you are and kind and caring you are of others, out side of depression.

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But today, no one's home. And your friends.. well, one is half way across the globe. Others here, have their own husband and children to handle, or boyfriends and fiance to commit to.

So, you write blog, you keep your heads up, to scroll down and remind your ownself, you had terrible depression many times before and you survived.

And you did accomplished many cool stuff as well.

Because God let you.

:)

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Dear God, I miss you. Badly. I'd like to hug you one day... night... or whatever time reference you call there in heaven, I dont know.