SOOKIE KNOWS

"It's sad and I'm mad... I'm smad. "

(Sookie - Gilmore Girls season 2)

Thoughts #78 - DROGEN

Opium poppy (candu) ni dulu masa zaman purba ancient egypt fungsi dia macam anaesthasia zaman sekarang. Pesakit jadi unconcious waktu pembedahan.

So, kalau hang argue kata, hang ialah pesakit yang mengalami sakit hati koyak teruk dan insist untuk di-treat ikut cara tradisional mesir purba, kira hang boleh la kan amik opium?

Saya nak bedah hati saya sendiri.
Gitu.

KRITIKAL

"[...] Kaedah Sokratik yang agak lembut dan beradab lahir daripada pengalaman Plato melihat guru kesayangannya mati dibunuh oleh penguasa yang tidak dapat menerima hujahnya. Bukan sedikit contoh orang-orang yang dihukum apabila cuba untuk berhujah atau mengkhabarkan tentang kebenaran.. Galileo Galilei dikenakan tahanan rumah hanya kerana mengatakan bahawa bumi ini mengelilingi matahari, satu fakta yang tidak disangkal lagi sekarang. [...] dalam sejarah para nabi dan rasul, perkara ini lebih jelas. Sejarah telah membuktikan bahawa konfrontasi idea tidak pernah lekang dengan kecaman dan ugutan terutamanya pendirian-pendirian yang menggugat kuasa politik.

Oleh kerana itu, Plato mengutarakan kaedah Sokratik yang lebih selamat dan lebih ekonomikal, kerana sungguhlah rugi jika orang-orang yang berfikiran cerdik dan membawa mesej kebenaran ini mati begitu sahaja. [...]"

(Kisah 25 Filsuf Barat - Matluthfi)

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you know it's a good book when you take a pause after every paraghraph just to digest and rephrase your thought on it.

tahniah, Mat... rasa macam baca buku Tariq Ramadan versi kanak-kanak.

lama tak  bacabuku  camni. a good comeback it is :)

INTERPRETASI BERBEZA

it must have been so different how the feelings and emotion involved in the process of celebrating the 2nd MERDEKA and the 67th MERDEKA.

a different kind of appreciation.

SURRENDER & SUBMIT

Kalau rasa sakit koyak rabak hati nangis pedih siap rasa semput tetiba dek move on chenta dongeng ni last-last membawa pada kau solat on time, start baca balik ma'thurat dan quran, then maybe

just maybe

all the pain worth it.

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Nak kata hang tu degil pala keraih nomharom sampai Allah kena bagi hang slap in the face bertubi-tubi sampai tak boleh napaih, knock down baik punya, just to tell you what you have been pursuing all along was not your real purpose in life.

Balik la Huda balik.

MALU

ni sapa mastermind closing ceremony sukan sea ya robbi....

jangan sampai aku panggei dak2 studio buat performance ataih tu

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when you had the opportunity to gather the ASEAN countries representatives and heroes under one roof, why not throw the bits and pieces, heritage of every culture and countries to the audience.

instill the spirit of being a part of ASEAN, that we all come from the same root, project the same features and faces, food lebih kurang sama, fought the same war against the westerners,

paling cikai pun hang buat laaa video flashback all atheles of all countries fight their ass off for their countries...

ni

alahaaaai.... typical malaysians melalak sampai countdown adoi...

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kalau aku jadi presiden filipina tu serius aku hilang respek kat malaysia

ASING

"...Pain is a form of force-detachment."

(Yasmin Mogahed - Why do people leave each other)

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Pain is a sign that something is wrong. You depended on something that weren't meant to be depended on. You were attached to the wrong things.

And when it fails you, it hurts.

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DETACH

DE #2 - FACEBOOK

For Facebook being given the trust to live-stream press conference of Bundeskanzlerin Angela Merkel of Germany is something to be well-thought about.

Germany kot... in all its efficiency

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p/s: still boleh paham Makcik Merkel cakap ok~ *flip hair, pakai spec hitam*

#startfrombelow #deutschhilangtiada #postmoveon #kristinakataifyouarenothis1stchoicemakalupakanlahdia

DE #1- SAKAI

For a german, Malwanne ni boleh tahan sakai dia.

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Oh kacuk Itali...

no wonder.

Abah #14 - POLITIK

the next time you think kids have the least idea of how politics run this world, think again...

They run household and unwritten rules and expectations and numerous negotitations and money.

Not to mention pulling out double-faces and rephrasing quotes of the quotes and interpretation...

All in order to survive under one roof.

NEUE TAGE

tahukah anda mengapakah basket dan zumba dan dancing tu addictive?

sebab masa hang buat tu, hang tak ingat apa.. hang di dalam satu alam yang lain, roh hang jadi bebas tak semena-mena.

boleh jadi jugak sebab kandungan hormon hang tinggi dengan adrenalin.

dan bila dah habih, hang jadi puas dan exhausted truih boleh pi mandi dan tidoq.

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ada sebab kenapa minda separa sedar ni dicipta.

WWK #41 - ACIK HUDA :)

"Let's revise our Malay again."

"Emm okay.... all of the sudden? I forgot my Russian already."

"How do you say 'Hai, how are you' in malay?"

"Hello, apa khabar?"

"Okay, how do you say 'My name is Huda. '"

"Nama saya Huda."

"How do you say 'I am going to be an aunt soon. '"

"OH MY GOOOOOOODDDD!!!!"

and there came the water works....

pengsan.

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kacuk Austria and Russia.

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pengsan balik.

Abah #13 - GEDULD

Tell me again how to be patient when  dealing with an egoist?

AR #10 - PUAS

Terima kasih wahai sahabat kerana volunteer diri untuk di punch right on the face.

Kita jumpa round 2.

WWK #40 - SO LETS DANCE

Yesterday you stumbled upon a song that has saved you and Kristina from our common fight on picking up songs for our pyjama party.

Because no one can disagree on

Alor on Danse - Stromae

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berapa tahun tak dengar ni hoi

WWK #39 - HANG OVER

Hallo meine liebe Hudochka! Never worry, we will always keep in touch, you have no chance to escape my love, it's decided. We are on a way back to Germany, the last days of holidays. I will contact you tomorrow from home. Kiss you, hug you!

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cepat balik, Kristinochka... I crave russian women's superpower

MOVE ON

"I don't really believe in regrets. All my experiences, even the ones that didn't turn out the way I wanted them to, I firmly believe they were all worth it."

(Max - Gilmore Girls season 2 episode 5)

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talk about redha and bersangka baik dengan Allah.

Thoughts #77 - TSCHÜSS

There are things in life, you thought it would be the end.

Sometimes it did, sometimes not.

If it is ever meant for you, it will come knocking your door at the right place, the right moment.

Till then, fix yourself. Wa tawakkaltu alallah.

WWK #38 - STRENGTH

The first time the friendship bloomed, 7 years ago, you have loved her so dearly. Then, Lena came and she got distracted. You got jealous and you thought you lost her.

So, you said to God,
"if she's the right friend, she'll come back."

and she did. Lena turned out to be an asshole.

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4 years later, a huge fight broke between us, about apartment, money and attitude. You thought it was the end to the very special friendship.

So, you said to God,
"thank you for sending me her, I've learned enough and ready to let her go."

and she came knocking your door with a bouque of flowers in her hand, cried to be forgiven. Of course, you cried too.

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3 years later, she is married to Stefan, which made him your brother-in-law. You couldn't handle Vienna and its crisis. But you were scared to leave Kristina behind and start all over in your homeland.

So, you said to God,
"take care of Kristina, dear God. Let her and her husband enter your Garden. And help me find my blessings."

and since you touched down your homeland, she constantly called you first...

"Why are you not taking care of our friendship? I don't believe there is an end to this."

WWK #37 - BABYSIT

Ada one time tu, Kristina sengkek, kering teruk. So dia decide untuk buat part time babysit budak 4 tahun. Kau rasa nak gelak and doubt that she could make it all the way.

Tapi tak kata la kat dia. Support la member.

"Ok la tu.... all kids are from heaven :)"

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Seminggu kemudian

"You are wrong, Huda. Some kids are really created from hell. And meant to be in hell."

dan kau laksana tugas seorang kawan baik, gelak guling-guling sampai kluaq ayaq mata. Dan muka Kristina masih ketat.

Nikmat.

GEAR 2

word.

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atoq balik cara hang hidup

Thoughts #76 - MULTIPLE PERSONALITY

Dalam salah satu episod sitcom F. R. I. E. N. D. S., Phoebe suatu hari tu sangat marah dengan Ross, tapi dia tak ingat kenapa.

Ross try tolong Phoebe ungkaikan persoalan kenapa dia marah sangat guna method trigger subconcious mind. Phoebe kena jawab selaju mungkin

'Hitam ke putih? "
"Putih. "
"Siang ke malam? "
"Malam."
"Kucing ke anijng? "
"Kucing. "
"Kenapa kau marah aku? "
"Sebab kau kata aku bodoh. Hah! "

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So, kau pun try la kat diri sendiri...

"Lurus ke bengkok? "

"Lurus.
Eh jap, lurus, tapi kalau straight or curve, aku pilih curve, kalau gerade oder gebiegt, aku pilih gerade (lurus)."

ah, sudah...

MANAGEMENT

that moment, when your earphones went missing dan tanpa hang sedar, otak hang terus terbahagi kepada 2 compartment.

satu responsible pasang lagu playlist
satu lagi responsible tang thoughts, persoalan dan mengelamun

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kagum dengan otak perempuan.

serius.

AR #10 - REALITI

apabila hang 26 dan selesai workshop dengan adik-adik.

apabila hang 26 dan insan-insan sebaya dengan hang ialah budak-budak Part 2 sem 5, tak pun speaker-speaker jemputan.

apabila hang 26, masuk tandas, pandang cermin,

muntah.

AR #9 - CARI REZKI

Majority speakers yang UTM sediakan adalah Part 2 yang tak mau sambung Archi.

Adakah ada agenda tersembunyi?

luls

AR #8 - CHOICES

Different path in life

AR #7 - SELAMAT BERBAHAGIA

Another Sad Love Song - Khalid

officially lagu rasmi untuk sambut workshop UTM

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Khalid you so clever you lagu so chill

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Marilah kita berdoa ke hadrat Ilahi, that it is not to a jerk the next time we fall in love with... Amen.

Muchas gracias. Adios

AR #6 - MATI

Cek kata lebih kurang begini

Aku pun pikir gitu gak dulu, tapi nanti bila dah tak da, time tu baru hang rasa. Time tu pedih, serius sakit.

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Things you learn from a 20 years old

WWK #36 - HERZ

dear Kristina,

i couldn't wait for you to be back.

i did cry. .. wallow...

it hurts.

still does

WWK #35 - LOST WORLD

dear Kristina,

come back to Klagenfurt quickly please. I need to cry

OWN LIFE

"it's terrible not to be needed... you'll see."

- Emily Gilmore

WWK #34 - LEMAS

Dear Kristina,

you were right.

RAW

why is it in any talent shows, audition are always the best act (in comparison to their next level of acts and performances) ?

MM #47 - HIJAB

imagine the guy's mind all caught up with images of you, and won't be able to concentrate in his prayer because of you in his head 24/7.

imagine

you are the bearrier between him and his Lord.

5 tahun akan datang

kahwin nanti, background music 100% gamelan only.

nak lagu lain boleh pakai headphone sendiri, ke kenduri lain.

Thoughts #75 - WARISAN

why is it that the sound of gamelan is so soothing...

like a drug to the brain, it brings you to the nothingness

Thoughts #74 - JUDGE

Facebook ni, dah macam skrin rentang kat hari kiamat.

Satu-satu post hang hat dulu kala dia keluarkan balik setepek kena muka hang.

Speechless dengan diri sendiri jap.

KOSONG

“If you feel far away from God, ask yourself, who moved?”

- Suhaib Webb

WWK #33 - GOTT

Dear Kristina,

i need you, your cigarette, our nights and our rooftop again.

i need you to tell me again and again,
that God did not move, but i did.

Abah #13 - HOFFNUNG

And Abah told Ummi, he thinks he might not make it for 25th Oct.

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Bila Abah kau dah start loose hope, bukan studio, foyer, hq, dectar, workshop kejadah tempat kau,

tapi sebelah dia.

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and you call yourself anak sulung. pui.

Thoughts #73 - KASIH

Human are pathetic

in so many ways.

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And You still promise us Your Garden? how merciful You must be.

Thoughts 72 - HAQ

When you are unwilling to prove anything to anyone.

But to yourself

and

to God.

.

ya Rabb. 

Maaf.

Thoughts #71 - TERIAK/QIAU

In episode 17 season 1, Gilmore Girls introduced a phrase called 'wallow'.

And apparently wallow is needed for every freaking girl to survive.

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And you learned how to wallow hardcore for 7 years, with Kristina as a bodyguard.

ATTITUDE

That Kosovan girl really knows how to Blow Your Mind.

Minit ke- 1:31 done right

ROUGH

Dear Huda,

Awat la hang slow sangat discover Dua Lipa ni?

Silalah khatam beliau.

HEART DETOX

Also, los.

BEZIEHUNG

Lauralie : Ouh, supermarket slut is all chilled.
Rory: Mooom!

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blessed the Girlmore Girls writer.

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7 seasons... mati la nak marathon semua seminggu

bye Archi. I never really loved you, anyway.

WWK #32 - DARK RED

Der Moment, wenn du nach 1000 Jahren keinen Nagellack mehr getragen hast, und heute ihn zum ersten Mal wieder trägst.

That distinctive smell that you've been missing so very badly. Danke, Kristina :)

BADDEST

Dear Demi,

Thanks for Sorry Not Sorry.

#mood #f***allthisshit #tiredofduallife

WWK #30 - TIRED

Liebe Kristina,

darf ich zu dir? Denn ich kann kein duales Leben mehr halten. Es ist zu anstrengend.

WISH #18 - DER RICHTIGE

to be drawn away from the evil and attracted to the good.

to be protected by the All-Mighty at all time.

WWK #29 - IMPORTANT LESSON FROM A RUSSIAN

Kristina meinte

Hollywood ist Hölle. Sie zeigen alles falsch, vor allem, was die Liebe betrifft.

Seine Darstellung von Liebe lasst jeden verwirrend. Denn solche 'Liebe' existiert nicht. Deswegen ist man nicht befriedigt in der Realität und kommt immer wieder in die Filme zurück, um sie es zu finden, um ihn selbst zu befriedigen.

Und Kristina meinte,

Was Hollywood macht, mit den ganzen Szenen von "Liebe-Machen", sind eine ganz enorme Vertäuschung, Verfalschung. Und es zerstört jede Ehe. Denn die Junge wussten es nicht, das solche Befriedigung existiert in der Realität nicht.

Denn in der Realität geht es um das Respekt. Liebe ist Respekt.

Denn das einzige Ziel im Leben: Gott. Sein Segen.

Thoughts #70 - GUTS

Daliso Chaponda ni macam Trevor Noah,

they've got all the guts in the world to smear that grotesque in the faces of those Brits.

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That moment, bila kau dah rasa azab dunia paling jahanam, you won't even give a **** to what others have to say.

Abah #12 - ZU SCHNELL

The Dr said,

Abah is of 50's but carry a body of a 70's old man.

Abah #11 - FIGHTER

The Dr said, with his kidney failure, high blood pressure, eyes condition and the on-going surgery, normal people would have suffer from stroke, paralyse, brain dead or worse die.

However, genetically his body is able to stand such pressure, so he survived the operation, even without general anaesthetic.

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And you have always blamed his genes, for all those bad moments in your life, when it was his genes that saved you from killing yourself jumping that railway track back in Vienna.

WWK #28 - THE UGLY TRUTH

Kristina hat mal gemeint,

wenn du es mit deinen Eltern nicht so ganz richtig hinkriegen würdest, wenn es da keine Friede in der Beziehung zwischen deinen Eltern und dir gäbe, dann würdest du nie eine echte Beziehung mit jemandem haben.

Scheiße, oder?

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Truth is sometimes a bunch of pain...

... in the ass...

Abah #10 - LEIDEN

Niemand mag warten.

Denn beim Warten beginnt das "wie wär's, wenn..." Spiel im Kopf.

Abah #9 - KRITISCH

Some people cry,

Kau

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